Saturday, June 16, 2007

I guess being a homophobe can get you fired

Dr. Burke will not be returning to the cast of Grey's Anatomy next season. For many, this is old news! Apparently, he was said to have been very upset when he was informed that his contract was not going to renewed.

They set it up rather nicely when they had Christina return to the apartment after being jilted, only to find all of Burke's personal possessions gone. I wonder how they'll explain his disappearance? Will he embark on a journey cross-country to "find" himself? Or better yet, will he join Addison in Santa Monica?! That would be funny. And what about McDreamy? Will they no longer be reluctant, manly BFFS fishing together and exchanging wry, witty remarks about their respective relationships with their interns?

Although I believe his comments were inappropriate and downright mean, I do commend his efforts to redeem himself. Anger management classes, public service announcements, and numerous apologies seem sufficient. I mean, really.

At least he didn't call anyone a "knappy headed ho."

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Civ Pro.

I'm finding it quite difficult to get the new CA info into my civ pro outline. I have the outline from the calbar website detailing what we need, but it's very extensive and detailed. There's no way this much detail was EVER tested on the bar exam! And then it gives us this mysterious statement about "emphasis on the areas where there are differences between the Federal Rule and the California Rules, especially those California procedures of pleading and practice that have no specific counterparts in the Federal Rules or that federal trial courts will look to in diversity cases."

Okay. The pleading rules that differ include a lot of nitpicky details like the time you have to answer a complaint or something. And I have to wade through piles of extraneous information in the Barbri long outline and try to extract the info. It's all very time consuming and annoying. Is there another way? What's everyone else doing?

P.S. I've messed up my blog. If you look at my sidebar, the links and stuff are all the way at the bottom. I have no idea what I did. Any computer/blog savvy people have any advice?

God, this is the "HELP ME" post.

What's Hot in Crim Law!

According to Barbri and other blogs, these are the hot topics tested in Crim law on the exam:

1. The mental states for crime in general, and the specific intent crimes with their particular defenses
2. Transferred intent
3. Accomplice liability
4. Inchoate crimes, especially conspiracy
5. Intoxication defense
6. Infancy defense
7. Self-Defense
8. All time favorite – Mistake of fact
8. Homicide crimes in general
9. In particular, the five defenses to felony murder
10. Distinguish between larceny, embezzlement, and false pretenses
11. Robbery, burglary, and arson

Having taken the exam before (oh, ha ha) and through my current MBE studying, I find this list to be very accurate. Hope it helps!

Should I buy a humidifier?

So I'm sitting at work, and I realize my nose is dry. It's been dry for a couple of days. I wake up feeling mildly uncomfortable. I feel like I don't have enough air in my room at night, but I don't have any windows to open, so I can't do that. Before you think, "How the heck does she not have a window in her room?!," I am not in prison with Paris. I have french doors that open onto a balcony, and I don't like to open those at nights because there are no screens and I am terrified of bugs and other creepy crawlies infesting my place.

I also have an air purifier I use to circulate the air a bit, but this may actually be more drying. It's just like a giant fan. So I was searching on Amazon and came across this adorable humidifer: http://www.amazon.com/o/ASIN/B000MR4IX6/ref=s9_asin_title_1-serq_g1/103-7609005-7407058?pf_rd_m=ATVPDKIKX0DER&pf_rd_s=center-2&pf_rd_r=0FDHCZYFSPBTXYK01198&pf_rd_t=101&pf_rd_p=278240301&pf_rd_i=507846

There is also this humidifier, which is more chic and probably more grown up:
http://www.amazon.com/Medisana-Hah1500EBP-Ultrasonic-Personal-Humidifier/dp/B000AF78KU/ref=pd_bbs_sr_4/103-7609005-7407058?ie=UTF8&s=hpc&qid=1181836492&sr=8-4

But I was just thinking how I'm going to spend less money, so should I really buy a humidifier? Do I need one? WILL IT HELP ME PASS THE BAR?!

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

My new schedule

I realized that my work schedule now is eerily like Barbri's morning schedule of lecture. Since I've already gone to those lectures and the info isn't BRAND new to me, I figure it's the same as last summer and working won't hurt my chances...right? So, with that in mind, here's my new schedule:

7:15-7:30a: Wake up, get ready, head off to work. I seriously get ready in 15 minutes. How I do this is explained below.

7:30-8:00: Drive to work while putting on some makeup. Listen to the morning show on the radio because I'm too bleary eyed and tired to listen to PMBR (hey, I just woke up 15 minutes ago!).

8:00-1:00: Work. Doze off. Look at blogs. Try to squeez in 17 MBEs. This is a hit or miss.

1:00-3:00: Drive home, listen to PMBR. Run any necessary errands and fix myself something nutritious yet tasty to eat. Pack a little snack, change into comfy yoga gear, and head off to Borders.

3:00-6:00: Study.

6:00-7:00: Come home, fix or buy dinner, and try to squeeze in a work out. I consider 30 minutes of working out a triumph.

7:00-9 or 9:30: Study.

9:30-10:30: Get ready for bed, some light flashcards and maybe something light to read just before bed so I don't have nightmares!

Ahh. If only it were this easy. Today, I've managed to do a set of 17 MBEs in Crim and scored about an 85%, which sounds excellent but is really inflated due to the fact that it repeated several questions I had already answered! I believe this is my fault, because I take the tests online and on my downloaded program at home. I also click "review questions later" from time to time which probably means they spit them back out at me.

Now, I really need to get going on incorporating the CA new subjects into my old outlines, as well as review one more set of bar exam past essays. But what I really want to do is watch television. Unfortunately, there's nothing on. Please tell me what's worth watching on tv these days! I've just ordered Girls Next Door Season 2 on my Blockbuster online account! 30 perfect minutes of mind numbing and pleasant study breaks.

Yesterday was a bust.

Yesterday was pretty much shot because I had to go to a graduation that was in the middle of nowhere. I tried to get some flashcard action going, and listened to PMBR both ways, but...it was a paltry study day.

The problem with being a repeater is that these concepts are not foreign to you anymore. You know the key terminology, and you just need to fine tune your understanding. So it's easy to kind of tune out when you're listening to PMBR or reading because it all looks "familiar."

I'm still trying to get in 17 questions at work. Then I do 2 more sets of 17 during the day. This time, I'm really trying to focus on MBEs. Like others, I've found Strategies and Tactics for the MBE to be very helpful. And so far, I really like Micromash. I like how it tells you what areas you're bad in, gives you the option to review the question later, and gives you your correct answers by subject and as a whole. I find it more difficult to go through the questions in the books because you have to flip back and forth and write. How lazy is that? But this way, I have the MM software on one half of the screen, and my word document for rules on the other. As I go through, I just jot down rules. Saves time.

It's just bar study in an increasingly impatient society.

Every day at work, I just wait for the time to go by. It's very tiring to get up so early, yet I know if I weren't working, I would probably get less studying done. I do feel that at this point, for repeaters, barring any crazy essay format issues or other deep rooted problems, we can put in massive effort and really kick this thing to the curb. I think for many of us, we're within inches of the finish line and it could have gone either way. It's funny, 'cause this time last year, I was a itchy nervous wreck.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Cuttin' Back

I've sold my Vera Wang wedding dress to fund my bar exam passage quest. How sad is that? Husband didn't want me to, but that's because he doesn't know how much the dress originally cost. When I bought it, I knew I would have to sell it to justify the cost, so it wasn't that terrible...I thought of it as an investment! I think of anything with a substantial resale value as an investment. Husband thinks my logic is twisted, because he says an investment is something you sell for more than you pay for it. Whatever. How often does that happen?

So anyway, we're all having to resort to fancy bookkeeping to take this test aren't we? I kind of think it's funny. Piles and piles of student loan debt, an expensive apartment, and selling of Vera Wang gowns...it's a chick lit book in the making.

SIGH.

Other ways to save money:
1. I don't drink coffee. Yes, you read that right. No daily addiction to Starbucks to gouge a hole in my bank account.

2. I use my Discover card rewards points to get a Border's gift card and use it to buy my tea and other treats as I study. For $20 rewards, you get a $25 Borders card! It's an investment.

3. There's no where to eat near work. So I have to pack my lunch. Although I have to buy food from the grocery store to do so, it's definitely cheaper than buying lunch every day, which my lazy ass would totally do if I could.

4. I eat at my grandma's and other relatives' houses. In the evenings, I meander over to people's houses for food. It's yummy. I also enjoy graduations this time of year. I usually get a great dinner out of it. Of course, I have to buy a gift and it usually cancels itself out, so that may not count.

5. Not going out has it's definite perks. Alcohol at bars are expensive!

6. Not buying new clothes because I'm not going out. All the stuff from before doesn't count. Starting today.

7. Selling books/sunglasses/shoes/bags/husband's things on ebay. Not so much these days, but whenever possible.

8. Downgrading the tv options...no more TiVo for now...BOOO...but with the summer hiatus, there's not much for me to watch, so that's good!

Overall, there are many ways to Cut Back since we're currently unable to Make More Money. And if I could PLEASE get my state tax refund (yet another grievance against the state of CA), that would be wonderfully helpful.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Just a quickie.

Leaving work now to go to the grocery store and stock up on my food for the week. Then I'll go to Borders or the library...I usually go to Borders but am thinking the library may be better. It's so hard for me to concentrate. I seriously think I have ADD. I beg my husband for meds but he won't get them for me.

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Thank you, Paris!

For taking up many work hours yesterday morning as I refreshed TMZ over and over again and watched you being led out of your house in freakin' HANDCUFFS and then pulled screaming "It's not right! Mom, Mom!" from the courthouse as your ass was hauled back off to jail.

I hesitate to draw even more attention to this ridiculous trainwreck of a case, but it was good for an incredulous WTF?! yesterday, and I figure that when I look back on this blog, I'll be interested in the riveting current events of the time I was preparing to take the bar for the VERY LAST TIME. =) I'm just going to say these things about this case, and I'm not mentioning it again:

1. I think it's stupid she went to jail. Yes, she broke the law, but most people get house arrest or community service. God knows she could have done more good cleaning the side of the 110 fwy of its graffiti than wasting our money on private cells and 5 personal security guards in our overcrowded prisons.

2. That said, since she did go to jail, just SERVE THE TIME. It's like 3 weeks. I'd gladly trade 3 weeks of jail for 2 months of bar review hell as a repeater. She's by herself, it sucks and I would be totally scared too, so I can only imagine how difficult it must be for someone like her, but come on, what can she do? It would have seriously made her look so much better if she quietly did the time. People already think she shouldn't have gotten such a harsh sentence, so critics and fans alike would at least respect that.

3. She has a mental condition that allowed her earlier release? Are you freakin' kidding me? Um, yeah. I think all the prisoners have overwhelming despair and depression. You're in prison. It sucks. That's ridiculous. It was such a patently obvious case of preferential treatment that it rightfully infuriated everyone and made them hate Paris more. I felt sorry for her the first time she went in, but now, I'm like, just suck it up!

Obviously, my sympathy is at an all time low for people who seem to have it better than me right now. This includes Ms. Jailbird Hilton. How sad is it that I'd rather be in jail than go through this studying? But seriously, don't you think you would do it? Three weeks of jail for a guaranteed pass on the bar exam? I would. I'd use the time in my cell to work on my pilates and work out, emerging as a fit, toned, and tough licensed attorney!

But back in reality, I'm outside on the patio trying to work on MBE questions. On an unrelated note, do you think my employer can track the websites I go to if I delete the history? Just a little paranoid and want to be able to say what I want without having to censor. =)

Thursday, June 07, 2007

The Results Are In.

I suck on the MBEs. I'm actually too ashamed to put it down here, for fear that it'll be real. Suffice it to say that I need to hit the Micromash software, hard. CalBar Blondie posted a comment about how the MBEs are very important, and I have to agree! I mean, I always thought so and all, but I get caught up in the whole, "It's only 35% of the grade" mentality. I got involved in this whole intensive essay tutoring thing last time and completely neglected the MBEs. As a result, my scores kinda plummeted. I think I did maybe a few hundred MBEs. The scale was much higher though, so my scaled scored seemed a bit bitter in comparison to my raw score.

On the bright side, my essay scores improved. I even got a 75 on the Wills question! And considering I wrote NOTHING about easements on Property, I was lucky to pull a 60. My evidence question was an all time low, coming in at 52.5, my lowest essay score ever. And I actually studied Evidence because I knew it was going to be on the exam. The never before seen format of the question completely unnerved me.

The sad thing is, if you combine my essay score this time, and the MBE score last time, I would pass! Yes, it took me a while to figure out the calculations, but I did it to cheer myself up. Remember in SAT II how there was the score choice option and you could pick your highest score? I would like to implement that option for the CA Bar!

Now, more than ever, I am determined to rock this thing. The past bar exam was notoriously difficult. I did not feel prepared and I did not feel good walking out (but one never really does, hmm?) . And I still scored in the 1400s. Which means I can do it this time around.

It's like being $1 short at the best sale of your life.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Back to Borders

It was like greeting an old friend. I love bookstores. I love books. But I've found it difficult to go into a Borders in the time between last February and now. I walk in, look at the people huddled over their laptops and books in the cafe, and quickly avert my eyes. I think, " I do NOT want to be one of those people again!," but I feel a strange solidarity with them anyway...

Not to be mean, (don't people always say that JUST as they're about to be mean?) but I've found out that some pretty unremarkable people have passed the bar. People I've known for years, people I've conversed with, people I've gone to school with. I'm not saying I'm better than them, but I know that they're not especially smart or quick or hard workers. Are they just especially...lucky?

Perhaps.

Or maybe they're harder workers. This is definitely my greatest downfall. I've been able to skate by on minimal preparation and bullshit my way through school pretty much all my life. My lazy brain is now thoroughly trained in the art of the "zone out" and picks through data to extricate only the most pertinent information. It seriously refuses to learn more. This leaves me thinking I know the law, but then when I see it applied in a real life scenario (i.e. MBEs and the essays), I may get it confused because I haven't thought it through to really understand. Because you see, this is not just rote memorization. We have to know how it's applied in real life! Obviously, right?

So far, I'm liking the MM software. I have a tendency to glance through the problems and pick random answers without really thinking about it (again, the lazy brain syndrome combined with a truly horrible lack of patience = failing the bar exam) but I'm scoring around 60%. I haven't read over my outlines or anything, so I figure with that and actually paying attention to the qs will bring me up to around 70%. Which is ok...

Monday, June 04, 2007

It's like I'm not studying for the bar.

It's hard not to lose perspectice during this process. Today, I was watching America's Next Top Model at work, and when Jaslene won, she was so ecstatic and all, "This is the best moment of my life!" and I thought, that must be what it would feel like to pass the bar. As if it isn't infinitely cooler and funner (and harder) to become a top supermodel.

I've filled two 3" binders with past CA bar exams and answers. I have yet to receive my scores!! I moved during the time I took it and results, and though I submitted a change of address, the CA bar, of course, sent it to my old address. And I can't ask for another copy until tomorrow. Or else wait like 3 weeks for the ever efficient mail forwarding system to work. So, I'm also trying to do the whole work and study thing, starting this week. I have to be at work by 8:00 in order to leave by 1:00. Today, I got there at 8:30 and left at 3:00. This is why I cannot work and study. I need the time allocation to be respected. I need to leave by 1:00, damnit! We'll see how this goes this week. I have this vision of myself going to sleep by 11:00, arising leisurely out of bed at 7:00, packing a tasty yet healty lunch, and being at my desk by 8:00, where I will spend an efficient morning working and getting some Micromash qs in, and leaving promptly at 1:00. Where I will then go home, change, rest an hour and eat a energy snack, and go to the library by 3:00. I will study until 7:00 and come home to eat dinner and rest and/or work out. I will study from 9:00 to 10:30 and then go to sleep.

Sounds like a good plan, right??

Thursday, May 31, 2007

The Plan

Micromash: I've heard great things about it, and though I loathe the thought of shelling out $800+ for the MBE review, I loathe the thought of failing even more.

BarBri long CA outline for the new subjects. *I know where you can get a photocopy of the new subjects for $100 if anyone's interested! =)

Compilation of the past essays and answers into a ginormous binder. Plan to go through and list the topics tested. I will then break down these topics into concise rule statements for each and that will be my "cheat sheet." I will, of course, also actually do these essays!

Outlines/Flashcards. Fortunately (unfortunately?) I already have these. I need to make new ones for the new subjects using the information listed above.

PMBR lectures on iPod. I hate these. I always think I'll listen to them in the car, but then I find myself switching to Pussycat Dolls instead.

I think I have it in me to do it one last time. I had prepped myself for this, knowing that Feb was not a good month for me (or Jan for that matter) so it was no where near the devastation of last time. But sometimes, I find myself incredulous that one year later, I'm still taking this exam. It's a tough pill to swallow. However, I look at it like an extra year of school. It's like med school, which is also 4 years! And at least I get to work and make some money during it, right? So it's better than 3rd year...kinda.

I plan on working about 20 hours a week, because: (1) I need the money (2) I think it'll be good to get out (3) I tend to whittle away hours doing absolutely nothing productive anyway, and maybe I'll study more if I know that this is the only time I have to do it! I'll take the last couple weeks completely off though.

I've registered with CA Bar, Micromash, and looking into hotel reservations. Any recommendations in San Diego within the SD Concourse center?

Friday, May 25, 2007

Eh.

Surprisingly, I don't feel that bad. I had anticipated it back in February. What with the computer malfunction, marriage problems, and various other problems going on at that time, it would've been a miracle. Plus, everyone I know seems to have failed. It was more difficult than July, so maybe we were all taken by surprise a bit.

I'm in a much better place now, and have psyched myself up for Round 3 for months now (although holding on to the small hope of passing). In July, I failed by 10. Maybe this time I failed by 5. Inch by painful inch, I'm getting there.

Congratulations to all those who passed!! And for those who didn't, misery loves company...

The end of a journey

Finally. It's all going down in 8 hours. After months (really, years) of work, it comes down to this. I was kinda okay this week, and even managed to forget about today for periods of time. It's not the same as last time. I'm so busy this weekend with in laws in town, weddings to go to, and a rehearsal dinner pretty much minutes after results are released that I think I'll just keep going. No drowning myself in alcohol or making phone calls like last time! I don't even think many of my family or friends know that today is the day! Except husband, who pretends it's a day like any other day and knows better than to ask any questions before I'm ready to tell him. =)

Well, where ever you are and what ever you're doing tonight at 6:00pm, know that if the result is not as expected, roughly 50% of all of us are feeling the exact same thing at the exact same time. And if the result is good...well, then you hardly need any advice from me on the ecstacy you will be feeling!

In a message repeated across CA bar exam blogs everywhere today, good luck everyone! And remember: It may take a few times, but odds are heavily in our favor that we will eventually pass. In this case, it's all about the destination, not the journey!

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Nerves of Steel

It's been forever since I've written! But fear not -- I have diligently been reading everyone else's blogs! Since my last post, I've moved and started a new job, and have had no private access to internet. Although I know it's unlikely, I'm afraid that somehow, they'll track me down at work so I'm afraid to log on!

But now, I have internet at my own place. It's great. I've been working for about a month now doing general counsel work for small to mid sized companies. No billable hours, no firm, and a variety of different work ranging from real estate, trusts, business, and doing all my own administrative work! I'm even answering phones. It's a medley of stuff, but the pay is good and my hours are super chill...loving that! Will be especially useful should I have something major taking up my time in the next couple of months. God forbid.

I'm actually okay. I'm prepared for the worst case scenario, and these past months have taught me that there are more important things in life and at the end of my life, this is just one test. A test that I can take until I pass it. A test that is absolutely passable. I came so close last time that I am certain that I'm perfectly capable of passing this thing; if not this time, then the next. Yes, it's embarassing and expensive and humbling, but I can keep my job and study at the same time. I have a plan, and I'm in control of my life should this test decide to re-emerge in my life.

In the meantime, I'm enjoying my slew of television shows:

- Grey's Anatomy. Don't even get me started on the absymal season finale.
- Ugly Betty. Always fun, always uplifting!
- Desperate Housewives. Still waiting to see the finale!
- Dancing With the Stars. Please, Apolo, win!
- America Idol. Team Jordin...
- Next PCD. UGH. Asia?! That girl is soooo ghetto. I was all for Chelsea or Melissa... SUCH a disappointment. It also felt like a slutty high school talent show kinda...but I still watched it.

Just in case you think I watch this much tv, I actually only watch the top three and skim the rest. The rest of my time has been spent furniture shopping. I've developed a taste for DWR, Noguchi tables, and Pablo lighting. Not good for the credit cards!

Things I'm looking forward to:
- Harry Potter Book 7 on July 21. I've pre-ordered from Amazon and can't wait!
- Pirates 3. Will probably end up watching some copy from China.
- Weddings galore. Time to shop for dresses!
- Wearing my Chanel sunglasses that I got for 50% off that I've lusted after forever.
- Getting a tan at my new pool.
- Dancing and working out so that I can be the next PCD!

Life is good.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Okay, nevermind!

I had a completely unprofessional moment yesterday. So, you know how I've been looking for non-legal jobs? I had myself fully convinced that I wanted to take a break from law and explore other options while I could. While I do feel that law may not be my ultimate career goal, that perspective has somewhat changed.

I managed to get an offer at a Fortune 100 fashion company, starting at an entry level corporate position. Mind you, it was very unglamorous and entailed doing some retail, but it was a start. I accepted it last week. I was to start on Monday, but then over the weekend, I started to have second thoughts. The salary was pitiful (a little more than 1/3 of what I made at my old firm!!), but I was prepared to take a massive cut in pay due to my lack of experience in any other field. I just started to feel that I couldn't jump to another field yet. My battle with law is not yet complete!! So, in an unprecedented move, I called the company and made up some convoluted reason why I couldn't accept the position. It was mortifying, but they seemed to understand and even said to contact them should my circumstances change.

Did I make the right decision? I don't know. There are those who say that our lives are a tapestry reflecting the decisions we make. We know that we make certain decisions, which leads us down certain roads, which then leads us to other choices that we would not have had we not traveled down that road. I wonder, what doors would have opened up for me if I had gone down that road? It seems that I wonder this a lot lately, with my career, love, and life in general.

Friends think I should have taken the job. It's not something I feel comfortable admitting to people, but I think a major part of the reason is pride. A small part of me feels like I would be taking the easy way out, and maybe my desire to work in another field comes from my lack of success (i.e. not passing the bar) in this field. I explore this in my mind, and think that no, I truly like fashion and would truly like to try other fields, but I want to be sure that this is the reason. I don't want to question myself, nor do I want others to question me. Once I pass the bar, I can do whatever I want to, and I won't have to wonder if it's because I couldn't cut it in law.

But in the meantime, this leaves me without a job. I do not want to go back to my old firm! And so, for the first time ever, I'm taking a break. I'm looking for some temp or part time jobs in law to float me and husband and using the rest of the time to relax. There's also the possibility of doing some work for my old firm on a contractual basis, from home, which would be nice. If anyone has any job suggestions in the LA area, please let me know! :)

Tomorrow, I will go down to San Diego for a mini-break. I plan on hanging out in the gaslamp district and going out with friends. In my contemplative state these past few weeks, I haven't really had a lot to drink (Oddly, I don't like to drink when I'm not in a good mood) but I think I'm ready to get my drink on now!

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Hmmm...What to do?

My body still can't really calm down, though I am sleeping better now! I've gotten all caught up in organizing my life. I think it's some kind of subconscious desire to feel in control of my life or something. I have extensive lists full of plans, and it makes me happy to schedule things. Today, I spent 3 hours cleaning. Then I went to the cleaners and dropped off about a month of dry cleaning for my husband and me. I went to the gym. I went to the grocery store and bought food (we had none). I watched Real Housewives and Desperate Housewives. And I sent out resumes.

I worked at a firm before this, but I am seriously tired of the law. I'm tired of always working my ass off in this field. I feel like I'm tired after years of double majors and summer school and tests and simultaneous jobs. So, I've decided to take this time to make a drastic change.

I am looking for non-legal jobs.

Yes, this is tough. It makes me think that I would "waste" all these years of work if I don't pursue law. It makes me scared that it'll sabotage my potential to get a job as a lawyer later. I have also realized how completely unqualified I am for anything OTHER than law, now that I've devoted so many years to it. Unfortunately, all of these years have also instilled in me a certain pay expectation that is difficult to meet when you are unqualified for a job. It's a dilemma, to be sure. I've sent out 4 resumes, and so we'll see what happens.

Tomorrow, I'm considering going to the spa. And then this weekend, I have to go back to Sacramento (the site of the horrible exam!) for a wedding! Can you believe it? I'm still slowly getting back into the swing of things, trying to figure things out.

Friday, March 02, 2007

It's Over.

Hey, so did I call PT B or what? It was a memo to my boss! Except...it said to be objective, but then it said to discuss how we got to our conclusions or something like that, and I took the whole thing to mean that we were to discuss the pros and cons of our case, strengths and weaknesses, likely outcomes, etc. like in the real world. So I did. I hope this is correct. I'm feeling a little weak on the last issue, regarding whether forfeiture violates Section 1600 because I kinda raced through that and said that it did, but on second thought, there's something in the cases that said it doesn't have to be because he could have exercised his options before...or something.

I can think of all kinds of things I messed up on. I can't think of a major one, but I muddled things a bit here and there throughout. This test was ludicrous compared to the last one. I so regret not passing the last time, because if those types of questions had been there this time, I would have kicked ass. On JDjive (a crap site, I know, but sometimes they have some good discussions), people were doing the post mortem on the bar and everyone was kinda all over the place but everyone agreed that this test was very difficult. So I guess that bodes well for the curve. Someone told me that they tested 11 out of the 14 subjects!!!! That is completely insane.

My one big question is whether Question 1 (property) discussed easements, covenants, and/or licenses. People have varying opinions. Overall, I must say that I felt like I didn't get everything perfect, or even close, but that it's going to all come down to the grading and the curve. I simply don't know what you need to have to get a 65-75. I mean, what if you mess up the law? Miss some minor issues? Can you get a 75? I just don't know how they determine it all. If it's "Well, she got the main ISSUES, and she messed up the law a bit, and missed a couple minor issues, okay, 65!" then I'd be okay I think. =)

As for the Sacramento Convention Center...well, I think we all have complaints about our bar sites. Not exactly associated with fond memories. It was my first time in Sac, and the two blocks I saw over the past 4 days makes me forever associate the entire city with trauma. Thankfully, my hotel was like 5 minutes from the test center -- we're talking from my room to my seat in the center! That was fabulous, given the weather and overall stress. The proctors were surprisingly spry -- they weren't a million years old this time, but a youthful 60-70! And of course, there's the nazi proctor who always insisted that my laptop paper lay horizontally, on the bottom and in a perfect 90 degree angle in my ziplock baggie on top of my cover sheets. The only truly horrible thing was the air conditioning that shot out of these massive ducts lined up on the ceiling on the center. It would just blow all this air, so hard that my hair and papers would rustle, and my fingers would freeze, I couldn't breathe, and I was just completely annoyed and cold. Imagine someone blowing a fan on you all day long while you're trying to concentrate. It sucked.

Last night, I rushed to the airport to get home, and looked forward to watching Grey's and Betty with husband. But of course, they were reruns. I thought about drinking, but strangely, the urge was not there. I'm slightly depressed and still wired I think. I went to sleep exhausted around 1:00 and woke up at 6:00. Couldn't fall asleep again.

It usually takes me a couple weeks to get back into the groove. I must now decide what kind of job to take and earn some money. I can't say that I feel good, but I don't feel terrible. I feel kind of...removed from it all. It is nice to not have to study though, and actually do other things without feeling bad. I'm thinking I'll go to the mall and maybe get a mani/pedi. And I have a birthday party tomorrow too.

Life goes on!

Thursday, March 01, 2007

No method to the madness

So I'm in between the AM and PM session of DAY THREE, otherwise known as FREEDOM!!! I remember last time, I was so excited to be done during PT B that I kept looking at the clock, thinking, "it's all over in an hour!"

I wrote a quick response to a comment on the MBEs in yesterday's comments as I couldn't log in. Today, I have some free wireless. I'm beyond fazed now with the freakin' bar examiners. I know everyone bitches and groans about the questions each time, but really...EVERY SINGLE QUESTIONS with the exception of Murder was a CROSSOVER. And although Evidence made an appearance as expected, it was unlike anything I've ever seen before. I was prepared for one, maybe two WTF??! questions, but seriously, every single essay was kinda whacked.

Question 4: Wills and CP. Wills again? It's not even an MBE topic! You don't get to test it again so soon! And thanks for throwing in the CP to make our brain go in two different directions at once.

Question 5: Con Law. No freaking way, freedom of speech AGAIN?!! Not only the same topic, but the same issue? I find this conclusive proof that the examiners are trying to f&^k with our minds.

Question 6: Sigh. I'll repeat -- never saw anything like that. Was there a lot of superfluous crim pro info in the beginning?

Now, on to PT B. They may as well give us another P&A. It's all completely random. Maybe a nice memo to my boss. That would be nice.

Good luck, all. The end is in sight.