Blawgin'

Good Karma

2008-07-27T23:22:00.001-07:00

At this point, everyone's done everything that can be done. As I've written on my title here, one must accept the things they cannot change. Look forward, and kick ass come Tuesday. There's nothing you can do about the past few weeks, regretting that you didn't study *more*. But you can calm down, get good sleep, stay healthy and alert, and put yourself if in the very best possible circumstance to rock this thing, once and for all!

Absolutely the very best wishes for everyone!

P.S. Go watch the Dark Knight on Thursday after the test, it'll be the perfect treat!!

My Tips for Studying for the CA Bar Exam

2008-06-25T22:20:00.000-07:00

Ahh, here we go…yet another post on what someone did to pass the bar exam. I do not delude myself in thinking that I know the magic formula to passing this thing. Not at all. But I put this up in hopes that it provides insight and reassurance to those who are studying. For me, I appreciated knowing what people were doing daily because it made me feel like I was on the right track as well. I’m not going to tell you how many hours a day to study or what books you should use. I’ll list the books I used because I’ve done extensive research on these books, as well as various programs and tutors, and I’ve had the unfortunate experience of having tried many different things. So others should benefit from my costly endeavors and use that time to, you got it, study or do something else for your state of mind. At this point, you all know your studying “style.” I can tell you I went to library from 9-5 every day with 30 minutes for lunch and no breaks and if that’s not your style, you’re not going to do it. Instead, I’ll tell you what books I tried and which programs I used along with how I coped mentally. This and that may pique your interest and work for you. Other things will not. Everyone is different, so use the information available to you to formulate your own unique plan!

Study Environment:

I’m compulsive. I really want to be able to go to a library at 9:00 after a healthy breakfast and settle in to a day of studying, treating it like a “job.” But I can’t. So I studied in a variety of ways. I really liked studying at home because I didn’t have to wash up or prep, and I could always have something to eat or drink handy. I also like it cozy and dark with one lone study light shining across my books. Sometimes I’d burn a candle. Starting off this way got a couple of hours of studying “out of the way” so to speak. When I was no longer being productive, I’d wash up, pack all my stuff, and go to a bookstore. Since I already got a few hours of studying in, I didn’t feel so bad about taking the time to do this. I’d get some books or magazines and use those as study breaks. And let me tell you, some of those breaks were loooong. Yes, I felt guilty. I’d usually have a bowl of soup or something and stay for 4 hours or so. Then I’d try to get to the gym for a little bit, go home and unwind, and then try to get 1-2 more passive studying in. All in all, it probably took me 14 hours to do about 5-6 hours of solid work. Efficient? No. But I was admittedly tired of the process and no longer filled with the energy and optimism of the first time takers. And my problems with the exam were not writing or the MBEs. Mine were about luck, psyche, and getting the black letter law. This meant I didn’t really have to write out full essays over and over again. I had to memorize, so this plan worked for me.

The Books: I’m only going to list the ones that I used that I found most helpful. Meaning, this set of books was all I needed to pass the exam.

- Strategies & Tactics for the MBE: Excellent resource for breaking down the MBEs and telling you helpful tips. It tells you what to focus on (i.e. that negligence makes up the majority of the Torts questions) and even breaks it down by numbers.

- Barbri Conviser: This is the go-to book. I don’t even need to explain it, everyone knows what it is! But I used it as a way of making my outlines, essentially re-writing it in a format that made it easy for me to understand.

- Bar Breakers: This is what I used on the days I was writing essays. If I was on a Contracts day I would carefully read the introduction to that section, noting all the tips, and then I would go through the essays, spotting issues and doing brief analysis. I’d then move on to the answer and compare.

- Whitney Roberts’ Cheat Sheets: This book is near to my heart because it breaks it down in a very organized manner, which I love! The templates were very, very useful in helping me to understand the law as well. There is no other essay book like this, no one else provides templates. For instance, an attractive nuisance argument would fall under breach of duty in an essay analysis. This kind of stuff is great to know because sometimes during the exam, you’ll spot all these issues but clumsily portray it on paper, losing yourself in your own confused analysis. Then BAM, your hour on that essay is up, and you’re forced to move on, confidence shaken, to the next question. Not good.

- Jeff Adachi’s Bar Cards: Used during the last couple weeks of the memorization period. There’s a tendency to read your outlines blindly and think you understand it exactly. But if someone covered up part of it, it’s hard to regurgitate the information. It’s nice that you understand your outlines, but at the exam, you have to be able to regurgitate it! So these little flash cards helped me to formulate nice, clear definitions for various elements of law, like assault, NIED, etc. That way, I could spit them out on paper then use the facts in the essay to nicely analyze how each fact demonstrated the definition I had just written. Plus, they are small and handy so you can carry them around and use them when you’re running errands or waiting somewhere.

- PMBR CD lectures: I uploaded them into my iPod and listened to it in my car and sometimes just laying around. I couldn’t bring myself to listen to them as I worked out as some do, but it’s nice to have a different method of transmitting this information other than reading or writing. Some people learn by hearing, and this was a good way to fill in those hours I spent driving or when I was tired but wanted to study in some way.

- Calbar Website Essay Questions & Answers: I went online at the calbar site and printed out every single essay and sample answer they have listed. In the end, I had two huge binders full of essays. Since I divided my studying by subject, I tried to get through each of these essays on the days I had assigned myself that subject. Mostly, I read and issue spotted and analyzed. Some I just read through. My goal was to at least get through each essay in some way. It's an invaluable way to get used to the format, the types of essays that are tested, and to recognize common fact patterns.

Some of these books might seem like they are teaching gimmicky tips and tricks, and although some do, this was not the case for me. These are not shortcuts or the “easy way.” This exam is extremely voluminous. It has been likened to trying to memorize a New York City phone book and this comparison is somewhat fitting. These tips and tricks help you focus on what is important and teaches you the particular way the exam tests. Yes, it is important what you know, but it is priceless to know what is most likely to be tested and how it is tested. That’s a gift! So take it.

The Courses: Soooo expensive…

- Barbri: Ugh...as much as everyone loves to hate it, they are without a doubt the most widely used and popular bar prep class in the nation. And yes, they are expensive, but so is everyone else. People sneer that Barbri is like Starbucks in that they are commercialized and lack individual attention and they would rather go to a more personalized bar course. This is your choice, but the very fact that Barbri is so commercialized and wide-spread is actually a benefit in that they have access to the best resources, the best teachers, and the best locations. Simply put, they have the most money. Is it unfair? Is it a monopoly? Are they cold, hungry money grubbers akin to scavengers at a funeral? Probably. But honestly, when you’re studying for this exam, you want the best. You do not want to risk it. You can do pro bono and frequent coffee shops frequented by sole proprietors for the rest of your life after this exam.

- The Bar Code: Private tutoring led by Whitney Roberts, author of the Cheat Sheets. This course varies by tutor and includes an essay and PT workshop. The tutors are helpful in that it forces you to write a certain amount of essays. However, I found that the time I took this course, I did the worst. That’s because I was always trying to complete the essays and usually just copying the answers somewhat and not really focused on “getting” the law. This is my own fault, and I didn’t use the course correctly. But it’s an excellent resource for getting the books for free and getting some workshops out of it. The PT workshop is very helpful and I strongly believe everyone should take one. It’s an overlooked part of the exam but it will make or break you. Every time I’ve taken this exam, I could have passed had I scored just a little higher on ONE PT. That’s how much these things count. For me, I didn’t practice the PTs because my writing skills were good enough and I found it most helpful to recognize the format and stay organized and meticulous, but you can’t do this as easily if you don’t take a course. As for the feedback on the essays, well, mine weren’t that impressive. Those with major problems on their writing will benefit the most but mine were just, “Analyze more, etc.” Patrick Lin, one of the tutors, is probably the best one they have. He’s recent bar grader and has a reputation for cutting to the chase and breaking it down and letting you know what issues are considered important and which ones aren’t. This is good to know so you don’t waste your time on the exam!

- Barbri Essay Advantage: As if barbri hadn’t already taken enough of my money. This course is recommended only for repeaters, as it conflicts with the regular Barbri course and is really just overkill if you do it. It was great because they did an overview of each subject, which is a nice refresher and especially useful with the new CA topics since no one knows what to expect with those and with their vast resources, I figured Barbri would know best. Then you did practice essays and got feedback. Again, not as useful for me but still got me reading and doing essays. Plus, the classes were only once a week so it was manageable and felt productive. It also gave me a schedule to work my study plan around. Overall, the best course for repeaters I think. Going through the regular paced program is redundant and overkill but this course combined private tutoring and writing emphasis with subject overviews.

During the Exam:

These days are grueling and exhausting. You have to do what you can to stay sane. At this point, the studying is done and the majority of the time should be devoted to rest and little bit of strategic studying (explained below). These are all little things that somehow manifest themselves into major problems under the stress of the exam, but sometimes, it’s the culmination of these things that can be your downfall. So it’s important to try and alleviate as much of this tension as possible. Some tips I used that I found useful:

- Don’t waste your time: That’s what all these books and courses are about. You’ve got to be able to go in knowing negligence inside and out, and knowing that if you get a riparian water rights subissue, that warrants only a brief analysis. This exam is super fast, you have to know where the money points are and hammer those home!

- PTs are very, very important: That being said, I wouldn’t waste my time doing that many of them. In my life, I have probably done a total of 10. That’s including the ones I did on the exams. I’ve scored between a 55-75, with the median being 65-70, which is not bad. These are worth something like 26% of your ENTIRE score. They are worth 4 essay questions. They can really save you, so make sure you know the formats and how to go through them in an organized, methodical, and TIMELY manner. Note the emphasis on timely! Make sure you finish it because it automatically looks better may bump your score a little. A bump in 5 points is huge.

- Feel Good: I wore a different colored Juicy suit for each day of the exam and got a pedicure. The bright colors cheered me up, I was able to layer so that I could adjust my temperature, and I felt comfortable and cozy. I wore flip flops because I like to take my shoes off and slip them under me while writing. Somehow, it’s more offensive when someone actually unlaces their shoe and takes it off than if they discreetly slip them out of their flip flops. Plus, it’s blazing hot in July!

- Pack your lunch: My mother packed a cooler with sandwich, a Pepsi, chips, fruit, and something sweet each day. You can leave it outside (no one would dare steal it for fear of the evil karma that would be inflicted on them!) and you don’t have to waste your precious hour off waiting in line with other nervous examinees and eating something that doesn’t agree with you!

- Try to find a driver: Thoughts of traffic and parking are always foremost in one’s mind in CA. It’s nerve wracking to think of getting into an accident or not being able to find parking. If you’re not staying within walking distance to the exam site, I would suggest that you try and find someone to take you and pick you up. You can be calm before the exam and you get dropped off right up front.

- You don’t need a million highlighters: Of course, I had five. But I used only 2. You can use them in essays to highlight important facts. They are even more useful in PTs because there’s so much more information. They can be useful in color coding your issues and facts, but that depends on how you work. And sometimes, you get too caught up and confused with your color coding system if it becomes too elaborate, which it has a tendency to become if you have a lot of colors…so just be careful!

- Bring your own clear bag: You can leave your backpack outside with all the forbidden items, but have your clear bag ready with all your permitted goodies. I actually had a clear purse like thing and it was sturdy and more reliable than the ziplock bags or the ones they hand out there (like grocery store produce bags). Out of the permitted items, I thought bringing in a contact lens case with solution in it and eyeglasses was most important. I actually had to take out my lens during the exam so I was super grateful I was prepared. It’s a long exam and you don’t want your teary, irritated eyes slowing you down.

- Bring a scarf: I wrapped my laptop in my pashmina so as to minimize bulky bags and then used it as a blanket across my lap during the exam. So it was a multi-purpose item!

- Wear earplugs: I, personally, swear by them. I used them constantly while studying and in a room full of hundreds of people, the scratching of pens, scraping of chairs, pitter patter of feet, coughing, sneezing, and gasps of horror were too much to bear. When you’re somewhere desperately wishing you were anywhere else, external noises somehow have a way of becoming much more noticeable.

- Study carefully: While I don't recommend really studying during the exam, I do find that careful, selective studying can be very helpful. If you read my posts during the exam, I predicted some key issues (calculated guesses, if you will), and focused about an hour each night on issues I thought were likely to appear. Some didn't show up, but many did. That little bit of cementing the information helped for me.

In general, I found it useful to have a variety of ways to study. By reading, by writing, listening to lectures, going to a class, all of those different methods kept me from getting bored and drummed the information into me in different ways. If there was a smell or taste method, I doubtless would have tried it! Also, this past time, I stayed with my parents. Before, I would always go into hibernation and basically be alone for those 3 days. I found it very isolating in some ways though. I thought there was no way I’d want my parents hovering over me asking me how it went every day and that it would break my concentration, but instead, I found it comforting. I had a comfortable bed, there was no way I’d wake up late and miss the test (you’d be surprised how this thought alone can keep you awake and terrified in your bed all night long), they drove me to and from the exam, and there was a yummy dinner every night. They were also too scared to upset me during this time so they were amazingly hands-off and understanding. If you have a significant other or family living close to the exam site who fits this mold and it’s an option, I’d seriously consider staying with them!

Everyone says stay healthy, work out, and take some breaks throughout this process. All that, you already know. The first time, you're filled with exuberance and hope. That's usually enough. The subsequent times...well, they're darker. So remember...keep your head high, and most importantly, never stop believing in yourself. The vast majority of test takers get a score between 1420-1480. Considering you need a 1440 to pass, the difference between those who fail and those who pass are often a matter of mere points. Believing in yourself can give you the edge you need. Remember, it's about getting the money shots and taking points strategically. No one can remember every rule of law. But you CAN have faith in your ability to pass this exam!

This is just a reflection of what I, personally, found useful. If you have questions, feel free to leave a comment and I'll respond. Good luck everyone ~ hang in there.

Walkin' On Sunshine

2008-06-25T22:16:00.000-07:00

I haven’t been very diligent about posting because I’m afraid to do it at work and I don’t have internet at home! (yes, somewhat archaic but since I’m either always at work or someplace that has internet, it’s a tolerable sacrifice)

Status Update:

- I am still diligently checking out the blogs of my favorite blogger. Sadly, most of us have seemed to run out steam. I look back with bittersweet fondness on the days we used to toil away and post daily blogs and shoot comments at each other throughout the misery of studying…now, I find myself wondering how everyone is doing and what they’re all up to…

- Watching a lot of Battlestar Galactica. During the exam, I watched a lot of Sex and the City because they were in manageable 30 minute increments where I didn’t feel TOO bad taking a break from studying (plus they were a great escape!). Now, I’ve become addicted to this extremely compelling show. For those who like sci-fi, this is obviously your thing. But for those who have never cared for it, it plays like a drama, except it’s in space. And it addresses crazy social/ethical/racial/emotional/everything else controversial questions in an amazing way. I highly, highly recommend this show!

- Work. Although I started the new job before results were released, it means even more to me now, for some reason. It’s not where I thought I’d end up, but I’m very pleased with the fact that I’m utilizing my law degree and blending law with business and consulting. I enjoy the job and it has a great deal of potential!

- Gym. *Sigh* It’s difficult to go, but I try to make it there at least 2-3 times a week. Lately, I’ve been foregoing yoga and doing the elliptical machine while reading. I don’t know how effective this is, but it’s better than nothing!

Overall, my life has changed drastically. Passing the bar exam was, really, everything I thought it would be. I went back and read my posts about the times that I had failed, and I could feel my heart stopping and stomach clenching because I really, really know how bad that feels. I always imagined reading the words “the name above appears on the pass list for the _____ bar exam” and now that I have, I printed it out and still look at it frequently. I look at my letter of congratulations from the bar examiners. I look up my name on the Calbar attorney search. After the post-results flurry of phone calls, celebrations, and tears, the excitement has died down for my family and friends. But for me, before I go to sleep at night and reflect on my day, I am still filled with gratitude and amazement. I will never, ever take this for granted.

The Week After...

2008-05-24T12:24:00.000-07:00

This week has gone by in a flurry of activity and disbelief. As I have yet to receive my official "letter" from the state bar, I keep having paranoid thoughts that maybe, there's been a mistake. So I called yesterday just to make sure. They said that I passed. They said the letter was sent to my old address, which should eventually be forwarded to me at my new address. But the bar has screwed me over enough times that my paranoia is not completely misplaced! So, this Memorial Day weekend, I shall continue checking the mail...

However, based on my daily checks on the Calbar website, it appears that I did indeed pass. And it's the best feeling in the world. I'll be driving in traffic, or wake up in the morning not wanting to go to work, and then I'll remember that I passed this exam, and it'll bring a smile to my face. The first few nights, I didn't want to go to sleep for fear that this was all a dream! And oddly, that first night last Friday, after seeing my name, my stomach completely cramped up for hours. Maybe my body was just releasing all the stress and anxiety of the past year and a half. And now, I feel like I've entered a new chapter in my life. Although I love my current job and it's in the legal industry, I'm not practicing in the traditional sense. I do have the opportunity to do in-house work though, which is great because a lot of attorneys covet in-house positions for their varied work and easier lifestyle. For me, this bar exam was about seeing the process through. If I don't practice, it's because I didn't want to, and not because they wouldn't let me!! And most importantly, it was for my family, who wanted this so badly. My grandma and mother cried when they heard the news - the only other time I have ever seen them cry was when my grandfather passed away. Honestly, in that moment, it was worth it. All of the pain and struggle were completely worth it.

I say this to encourage everyone who did not pass because I know exactly how it feels to be a repeater. I know all of the inspirational quotes out there about there being different paths, God opening a window, never give up, blah blah blah. I'm not trying to say they are trite and cliche (although some of them are!) but only that this experience really tests your sense of self. You begin to question how smart you are, if you'll ever pass the exam, and how much more money you should put into it. If you give up now, will you always wonder if you could have beaten this thing? I wondered that a lot. I could tell myself I didn't care, I was going to move on with my life, but I hated the idea of walking away from it without beating it. I'd rather not have gone to law school in the first place! You also begin to dread the questions that well-meaning friends and family will ask about the exam. I got very tired of acknowledging "good luck" and "I know you'll pass!" wishes. I was also embarrassed when results came out and I had to tell people I did not pass. The shock, sympathy, and then their embarrassed responses were, at times, humiliating.

But you know what? It's the failure that makes us savor the success even more now. And it teaches a lesson in humility, empathy, and strength that you otherwise would not have had. And in the end, it's worth it. But it's only worth it if you eventually pass. Otherwise, it becomes a bitter memory of a dark time and a permanent mark on your self esteem. I encourage those taking the exam again to never give up and to see this through.

I have come within points of passing every time I took this exam. My problems with passing were mostly personal. But during that time, I became intimately involved with all the bar programs/books out there. I've heard of them all, researched them all, and at some point, used most of them. In my next post, I'll list them and post my experience using them. Others should benefit from the thousands and thousands of dollars I've poured into this process!

I still cannot believe it...

2008-05-18T11:54:00.000-07:00

I had neglected to update this blog in recent months for many reasons -- moving, new job, life changes (am now single), financial woes, and a general sense of despair that is often associated with the bar exam. I continued to keep up to date on my fave bloggers out there though, and their words often gave me hope and made me smile.

Life has been going very well these last months, after the $%#!$ of 2007, and I suppose a part of me just wanted to get on with my life, with or without passing the CA bar exam. For me, truly, this journey has been incredibly introspective as well as strengthening. I had some major personal issues going on last year, and a life that was ignorantly, seemingly perfect kind of fell apart.

For the first time, I faced my life, myself, and the decisions that had brought me to this point. And I didn't like what I saw. I saw a woman who had let life happen and had made decisions largely based on image and what I thought was expected of me rather than what I truly wanted. I didn't face my shortcomings and blindly (and probably rather smugly) thought life generally went my way. In the midst of all this inner conflict, the bar exam loomed, an ever-present source of stress and tension. It weighed on me like nothing else -- even if something good happened, I couldn't really enjoy it, because it was always there; lurking like constant bad news. I can honestly say that I don't remember the last time that I was really, completely, absolutely happy. Which would surprise those who know me, because I'm seen as a generally optimistic, cheerful, and even perky person by almost everyone who meets me.

To some extent, life is like that. There are things that are truly out of our control and in the hands of fate and whim. But mostly, life is what you made it. And with that resolve, I set about to make changes for myself that were within my control. After the exam, the bar result were not. So I let it go. I got myself a new apt, a great job, a fantastic gym membership, and just forged ahead. I pulled it together in my personal life. And when I least expected it, I passed the bar.

And now, I can't believe it. I don't even know what it feels like to be completely happy anymore so now that, really, I am, the feeling is unfamiliar and awkward. Life is amazingly versatile, complex, and rich. And the journey is often fraught with unexpected twists and incredible difficulties. But once you reach your destination (or at least one of the stopping points along the way!), you look at the road behind you and the satisfaction is all the more sweet because of it.

The Name Above Appears On the Pass List for the February 2008 California Bar Examination!!!

2008-05-18T00:19:00.000-07:00

I never thought I'd see those words.

And in complete honest truth, I didn't even check the results until curiosity overwhelmed me because I was so certain I was doomed to be a repeater. It's not that I gave up...I was just prepared.

And now...I simply cannot believe it and I'm so grateful, happy, and relieved. And it just goes to solidify my belief that this exam, really, is a complete crapshoot.

In the words of Kanye West...

2008-02-25T18:23:00.001-08:00

"N-n-now Th-th-at don't kill me
Can only make me stronger..."

Oddly, these lyrics keep running in my head. Must've played it too many times on my iPod while running. My famed optimism has deserted me, and I am now just trying to stay calm.

Everyone has a different feeling. Some are actually excited -- like the last burst of energy before death (sorry for the pessimism), some can't wait to go in and take this thing. I get it -- you get your life back. Some are an anxiety-ridden mess. I fall somewhere in that spectrum, leaning towards the latter. I honestly don't know all the rules. Especially the new subjects. I can't differentiate things. And when I memorize one thing, I can swear I forget another.

I've been taking it fairly easy today, probably a total of 3-4 hours of studying. I'm just aimlessly going through essays and rules, trying to re-memorize stuff that doesn't come to me. My biggest problem is that I know it when I read it, but can't regurgitate it when I have to write an essay.

Oh God. After this, I have to go back to the life I've been pushing off these past couple months. Bills, jobs, apt, some random medical bill for $1000 that they just sent me yesterday (nice one, guys), loan repayments....UGH.

That being said, I am fully expecting a Civ Pro question this time around. And a Torts question. And of course, PR in some way. Wishing everyone the best of luck tomorrow!

Pure, Unadulterated Glee!

2008-02-20T21:20:00.000-08:00

Coming my way on February 26, 2008. What, you guys aren't waiting with breathless anticipation for this glorious day to arrive? It's the day that Sophie Kinsella comes out with her new book, "Remember Me?" (and that other pesky, life-ruining thing I refuse to discuss right now)

I absolutely love her books, especially the Shopaholic series. They're filming it into a movie, called The Secret World of Shopaholics or something lame like that. It's also being shot in NYC, which is also kinda lame. But Isla Fisher is playing Becky Bloomwood! You know, the hilarious girl from Wedding Crashers -- "Cause I'd fiiind you!" aka The-One-Who-Married-Borat. And they're also making "Can You Keep a Secret?" into a movie, starring none other than Kate Hudson!

Much to look forward to this year.

This one is about a girl who has a loser BF, a going nowhere job (we can all relate), messed up teeth and bad hair. She gets amnesia in some entirely believable way and wakes up 3 years later remembering nothing. But, in a marvelous and quirky twist of fate, she wakes up to The Perfect Life. She has shiny, long tresses, a fab job, a rich, drop-dead gorgeous hubbie, great teeth, and the latest LV bag. I fully expect it meander along in this upbeat, charming way with obstacles, finding yourself, deep realizations about how the so-called perfect life can be...not so perfect...and ultimately, a happy ending. Who amongst us, choosing this career in law, has not come to the jarring realization that this is NOT the life we imagined, or thought we wanted? Right?

So, I'm ordering this book on Amazon, so that it arrives on my doorstep on the aforementioned date and I will have something to drown my depression in as soon as I return home on February 28. I think I'll write my own chick lit one day. And it's going to start, "The name above appears on the pass list for the California Bar Exam..."

Character Evidence, Lipstick Jungle & Hugs

2008-02-20T00:49:00.000-08:00

I hate character evidence. It all makes sense when I read through it, but when I read a fact pattern concerning character evidence, my brain freezes. That said, I am determined to learn this one aspect of Evidence today. I will walk in on the 26th knowing this one thing, dammit!

Character Evidence
Evidence of a person's character is inadmissible proof of the conduct of that person unless otherwise provided by law. This applies to criminal cases and civil cases only where character is directly in issue.

The Accused - "I'm a good guy!"
Only the accused can initiate character evidence through reputation or opinion testimony. The prosecution can rebut by cross-examining the witness OR by placing their own witness on the stand to testify about accused's bad reputation or to give their opinion of accused's bad character.

The Accused - "The Victim is the bad guy!"
Only the accused can initiate reputation or opinion testimony about the bad character trait of the victim. Prosecution can rebut by cross-examining the witness OR by placing theirown witness on the stand to testify about accused's bad reputation or opinion as to the SAME trait OR victim's good character.

Specific Acts of Misconduct
Generally, these prior bad acts are inadmissible unless they relate to motive, intent, mistake, identity, or common plan (MIMIC rule). Exceptions: prior sexual assaults or child molestation.

For some reason, it's difficult to get straight in my head! I think I confuse extrinsic evidence (which is not allowed) with specific acts....

But on to more exciting things. I finally finished watching the last episode of Lipstick Jungle. I gotta say, the more I watch it, the more I like it. I love the Victory Ford character's clothes! It's the first time I actually went on those "Seen On" sites to try and hunt down what she wore. In particular, I loved this cream, open necked coat she wore and this gigantic pearl drop earrings she had on. I've actually hunted down the designer and asked about buying them. Yes, I'm a little crazy. I've also been on the hunt for a comfortable (I'm allergic to wool), slouchy, mid-length neutral colored shrug/outerwear thing that's casual chic. Something that I can wrap around myself as I study, and something I can drag with me to the bar...basically, the clothing equivalent of a hug. I need a constant hug! God, at this point, who doesn't?? My gym carries this one: http://www.shopbop.com/kebun-cardigan-love-yaya/vp/v=1/845524441812421.htm?folderID=2534374302031126&fm=browse-brand-shopbysize in a cream/taupe color and I have a coupon...but it's kinda pricey for a hug.

But hey, this is LA. Even hugs come with a designer label!

Pepsi & BBQ Chips

2008-02-18T00:19:00.000-08:00

Yum. I've been steadily munching through a bag of BBQ chips as I make my way through Torts. Yes, Torts. It pisses me off that this is supposed to be the "easy" topic and as I read through the outline, I think I understand it, but then my MBE scores are all over the freakin' place. PMBR says we should anticipate 13-14 negligence questions on the MBE, and that sounds like a solid amount. I mean, out of 200 questions, 10 are supposed to be "test" questions and if we can just nail negligence, we can get about 14 questions right! I mean, 14 right answers are huge! It's like, duty, breach, causation, damages! BOOM! Got it! And battery and assault? Puh-leez....the first torts I ever learned. Totally know them! Then I do the questions and Micromash is like, "Um, NO, you moron. You must know that "Kill the umpire" is a common baseball term and not likely to cause reasonable apprehension of bodily harm." Seriously? (Munching furiously through a fist full of BBQ chips) WTF?!

So I take a slug of Pepsi, wishing it were Goose, and continue. Defamation. Love it. Got it nailed. And then the question is like a defamatory statement made in the United Nations and people may or may not speak English. Hmm... These folks are really particular. This really sucks. And my brain hurts.

But you know what? I like defamation. I hope it's an essay question. And this is the format I would use:

Defamation
Elements: (1) A defamatory statement, (2) Of and concerning P, (3) Communicated to a 3rd party, (4) Damages (presumed if libel or slander per se)

In addition, if the the statement was of public concern, there are two constitutional elements that must be proven: (1) fault and (2) falsity (malice if public figure, negligence if private).

Defenses: Qualified privilege, Absolute privilege, Truth (if it is a private concern)

You know, something like that. I would plug in the facts and analyze away. And you know what's a weird little issue that for some reason, I always forget when it comes to defamation? Intentional infliction of emotional distress. I have a hard time with naturally coming up with this one because usually, the folks in the fact patterns are whiny b&*%#es and for some reason, my view of extreme and outrageous tends to be a lot more stringent than theirs.

In the world of law, I am not a reasonably prudent person.

A Change of Pace...

2008-02-15T19:49:00.001-08:00

Remember how in the beginning, you used to go to the BarBri lectures, congratulate yourself after the 3 hour lectures because that time you spent listening, surfing the web, and daydreaming counted as "studying", went brain dead for a couple hours during lunch, then spent a couple hours working on beautiful, extensive outlines followed by some MBEs? And of course, we'd read Conviser. Remember that, way back when?

It seems that most of the time was spent just learning this new, Bar exam way of looking at the subjects and most of the time was spent in preparation. We didn't feel comfortable doing essays when we didn't really know the rules, and there were lots of nice, passive ways to study.

Well, those days are gone. Now, we'd bore ourselves silly trying to do the outlines. We are forced to do the essays because we've done all that other crap. Which forces us into the arena of ACTIVE studying. Which my brain does not like.

To be honest, I've barely looked at my outlines. I listen to the Essay Advantage lectures on the subject for a brief overview and pretty much am down to trying to memorize the rules and going through essays trying to spot issues and bring up the correct rule statement. And applying the facts correctly. I know that my writing style doesn't suck, I've come too close and had too many people tell me that I'm writing the way they want me to. I just blank out and forget a couple key issues come game day. That, combined with a mediocre application of the facts to my analysis, brings me juuuuuuuuust....a......liiiiittttle..... shy of 1440.

Damn, that's discouraging. You'd think I'd be all gung-ho wanting to overshoot the whole exam and pass with a 2000, but no. I'm just trying to push myself over the edge a teeny bit and really, just need a bit of good luck. Again, just doin' what I can to squeak by! This is not a good philosophy in life.

And honestly, I just can't, simply can't, study for 8 hours a day. I mean, really. 8 hour days used to be combined with the aforementioned BarBri crap taking up half that time, leaving only a couple hours of real essay practice. Now, I'm expected to do 8 hours of active studying? I just can't. I try. But I can't. Someone please tell me some miracle bar exam stories. You know, the "I only studied for 3 weeks and went on a trip to Hawaii and still passed the CA bar exam" types...

Beautiful, Sunny Day!

2008-02-12T14:21:00.000-08:00

So many options. Do flashcards at the pool while sunbathing? Do MBE's by the pool while sunbathing? Listen to PMBR lecture at the pool while sunbathing? Or....read romance novel by the pool by sunbathing?!

I love this sunshine. I'm going to go scare neighbors by flopping my pale, pasty body onto a lounge chair by the pool while muttering the elements of murder under my breath.

This. totally. sucks.

2008-02-12T01:07:00.000-08:00

In an effort to remain sane this time around and not go around like an itchy, crazy zombie woman, I've pretty much....um....pretended like this hell isn't happening.

Not really the best study plan.

SIGH. I either study and go crazy or do other things and remain relatively sane. Is losing my sanity worth passing the bar? Perhaps, if it redeems my self-esteem. Today, I managed about 4-5 solid hours of reviewing Crimes. I drove around in traffic to buy used Adachi bar cards from a July 07 passer. I figure these cards will help me memorize the black letter law rules so that I can recall them with the greatest of ease on those 3 magical days. Anyone have any thoughts on these cards?

Tomorrow's plan: Bank, post office, study Crimes, pilates. I am fully stocked on food and really, have no reason to step outside of my insulated little study cave except to stand outside blinking at the sunshine and all the happy people outside who DON'Thave to take the CA bar. But I like to go outside and do something "normal" every day so I don't, again, go crazy...

Lipstick Jungle vs. Cashmere Mafia. Obama vs. Hillary.

2008-02-10T22:44:00.000-08:00

So many things to ponder other than the bar. And yet, I am here in a time warp. It's like this whole last year has been a shrine to the myriad of ways I can ruin my life. Sense of self, money, career, love life...all down the drain. Even my hair. I cut it a while back and it looks like a mullet. That's really just the last damn straw.

It's perspective. If I think about it that way, I would get majorly depressed. On the other hand, I can be positive and think about the things that make me happy.

1. Family & Friends. Still got 'em.
2. LV Speedy bag. It's fabulous.
3. Overpriced gym membership. Keeps me in yoga and working out.
3. The return of sunshine here in LA.
4. The $300 in rent I saved this month due to my excellently drafted letter to my landlord regarding constructive eviction.
5. Freedom. In knowing that my life can be anything I want it to be and knowing that despite the trials, I have immense strength.

The Year of the Rat -- Sounds Icky.

2008-02-07T19:05:00.001-08:00

Time to rally the troops. We're all lagging on the posts here. In a stark contrast to last summer, the old group of bar bloggers have dwindled to a mere few posts a month, if that... I'm hoping that it's because we're all busy studying, but if you're anything like me, that (unfortunately) is not the case.

UGH.

There's a certain apathy that comes from this. Someone should have told me that law school is actually 4.5 years. I could blame it on the intense personal drama of the past year, but really, it's my laziness that's finally caught up to me. After a lifetime of overachieving through sheer luck and a degree of natural smarts, while deftly gauging procrastination vs. bare minimum effort, I've been found out for the fraud I actually am. I'm not a hard worker. I lack discipline. I tend to scrape by. Yes, we're all smart. At this stage, that's a given. But what separates the men from the boys now is our ability to put forth the grueling effort to surpass this. And as of yet, I haven't been able to do so.

I've taken time off of work, and excuse my few hours of studying per day by figuring that's how much the people who are working are studying, plus the mentality of "I already know this stuff."

UGH.

I am SUCH a moron. At this point, the only thing driving me is the desire to not humilate my parents and grandmother, plus the fact that I simply cannot afford NOT to pass, financially. I don't know if that's enough.

That being said, I'm remarkably sane these days. I'm going through and writing out the rules to the main topics on each subejct because I have a tendency to not be able to regurgitate the concepts even though I understand them when I'm reading them. So I try to say them out loud and write them down as a sort of cheat sheet to use before the exam. And I'm trying to boost up my MBEs. As of today, I've done about 100. This is not good.

It's crunch time.

New Year, New Bar!

2008-01-21T23:25:00.000-08:00

It's been so long since I've posted that I forgot my password and was too lazy to bother. I know I dropped off the face of the earth for a while there, and many wondered if I simply fled after the monstrosity of bar results day.

Again, I came perilously close. Heaven forbid they actually pass me. Within about 12 points. Enough time has passed that I now accept my fate and am diligently studying for the February exam. I've taken time off work and enrolled in BarBri's Essay Advantage. I was also going through some sick personal issues last year that is now well on it's way to resolving itself, so hopefully, that helps... I kind of thought of waiting until July, but really, I'm too impatient. I just couldn't go another year without even trying!

I also have that monster cold that's been going around, so I've been wheezing my way through Property today and let me tell you, nothing is absorbing...motivation is low and attention span is low. Headache is going strong though!

So, I'm back. And I will be blogging. =) Hope everyone else is doing well in their studies and their lives! Let's get this party started one last time!!

No!

2007-11-16T18:08:00.000-08:00

I don't think I passed. I can't believe it. I'm glad the waiting is over, but I'm feeling pretty miserable. This has NOT been a good year.

I hope many of you passed.

Feeling Sick

2007-11-16T17:19:00.001-08:00

The anxiety is going to kill me. I tried to put it out of my mind all day, and now it's about 40 minutes until results...I've decided to just let the craziness flow free.

As Last Call said, third time's the charm!

A special good luck to my fellow bloggers out there, especially Grand Poobah, Blondie, Last Call, and Richard...your blogs kept me sane!!

How are you going to spend your day?

2007-11-16T01:18:00.000-08:00

I (unfortunately) remember this day well. It felt surreal last time. I went to spa, got a massage, and tried to relax. It didn't work.

So this time, I'm not going to a spa. What's the point? I'm too anxious. Best to just go when I can thoroughly enjoy it, which is NOT now. So, in the morning, I'm taking the day off and going to get my teeth whitened after sleeping in as long as possible. I'm going to try Brite Smile. Then, I may do some boutique shopping along Robertson followed by yoga and running. I think subconsciously, the plan is to work on my physical appearance via beauty treatments, clothes, and exercise so as to have an alternative (aka become a stripper) should that-which-cannot-be-named happen. If using the brain doesn't work, I'm going to have to resort to baser measures.

This is a new low.

I don't even know what kind of nonsense I'm spewing. I've been like this all week, particularly today. I actually just want to shuffle out in my pjs to Blockbuster in the morning, rent some sappy DVDs, cover my windows, order a pizza, and zone out in front of my tv. I literally don't want to do anything except curl in my bed, eat, and watch tv. Tomorrow, I will be able to function again because this limbo will finally be OVER.

How are you guys holding up?

The Pass Rate for July 2007 in CA is 56.1%!!

2007-11-14T21:57:00.000-08:00

OMG OMG OMG.

The pass rate is already out. You can check it out at http://calbar.ca.gov/calbar/pdfs/admissions/Pass_StatsSummary.pdf

The pass rate is higher than it has been since July 2001...this is either fantastic or dismal, depending on what end of the spectrum you end up on. I can't believe that these people have the results all ready, our letters printed out and ready to go, and yet....we have to wait until Friday at 6:00 to find out our fate.

As it is, I can't function this week. I'm exhausted and my eye is constantly twitching. I wish they'd just post it as soon as they're done grading, as they obviously are if they're sitting around playing with their calculators and compiling pdfs of stats.

Ahhh....if there's one thing I've learned this year, it's that we are a resilient group.

They're Baaaaaack....

2007-11-07T18:37:00.000-08:00

I missed my old friends, Bar Exam Nightmares. The other day, I had my first nightmare about the exam since, well, the exam. Something about being out with friends, desperately needing to check the internet to find out if I passed, and being unable to say anything or actually check because I didn't want everyone to pay attention to whether I passed. It turns out I didn't, and I woke up in confused terror.

No matter how much I say that I'm at peace with this (because really, the first time you find out you didn't pass is the most terrible), I dread that feeling of complete despair that comes in the minutes following the news that one did not pass. It passes and you bounce back to pragmatic optimism, but those times are so dark that I'm actually scared.

For me, I just want to freakin' KNOW. One way or the other, so I can move on with my life. I think I've said it before, but it's the limbo that kills me. It makes me feel better if I can just make a plan for the next few months. I've already planned to take next Friday off from work, and so has the other law clerk anticipating results. We've agreed not to talk about it and to not check each other's names on the pass list. I think we're going to pretend like this hell never happened.

May the days pass quickly...

Honestly!

2007-10-23T23:06:00.000-07:00

There is nothing going on. I'm starting to feel a little sick and once November hits, I will be in agony until D-day, at which point, I will be better. Pass or fail, at least I'll KNOW. This limbo is the absolute worst!!

I've been working at a different law firm literally minutes from my house since the exam. I'm liking it much better! I get to do a lot of research and writing, and also have client interaction. It's been very good practical experience for me and I'm seriously loving the commute. I'm working about 35 hours a week, which is also great, with sporadic 4 day weeks. Kinda nice. Since I'm in this limbo, I'm not working lawyer hours! I'll only work lawyer hours once I'm an actual lawyer!!

My fellow bloggers have said the same thing, it's hard to blog when there's nothing going on pertaining to the bar! I'm actually still enjoying the feeling of coming home from work and having no studying to do. I absolutely relish this!

Some peripheral things going on...
- Watching Planet in Peril on CNN mixed with Kimora Lee's Fab Life show. That about sums me up.

- Reading Love in the Time of Cholera. This book has been around for awhile, is being made into a movie, and has been hailed by Oprah as amazing! The greatest love story of all time, despite the 600+ affairs this man has. This, I gotta know. ;) And for those who've seen it, this is also the "fateful" book in the movie, Serendipity! Love that movie.

- Went to Vegas and had way too much alcohol. Also lost much money. My throat is sore and my nostrils and pores are filled with smoke. Ick.

- Currently loving Britney's "Gimme More" song and dancing to it in the car. I know, I know, the VMA performance was a wreck. The song has grown on me and though it doesn't have the deepest lyrics (uh...gimme gimme on repeat?), it's got a great beat to dance to!

- Just bought Mario Badescu's famous Drying Lotion for use on a massive pimple on my chin. This stuff has a cult following and it's my first time trying it! It's supposed to be incredible, so I'll let you know how that goes. =)

- Liking the fall season because there's stuff to watch on tv. I tend to watch it online now. I've seen Samantha Who, which is suprisingly funnier than it looks, and Private Practice, in which the people aren't that attractive and lacks chemistry but I watch because I'm curious about what happens to Addison.

Like I said, not much going on! Plan on watching Elizabeth in the theater soon, and going out on Saturday for Halloween. Other than that, just watching the clock ticking.

And you know what? I refuse to believe I failed, but I am prepared for the eventuality that I may have to take this test again. It's been a tough year, and I will cut myself a break. At this point, the part of the exam I'm most confident about are the PTs...I'm hoping for 65s on both...and maybe it'll pull me through!

Hope everyone else is hanging in there!

Fastest Bar Exam Results...

2007-09-24T22:00:00.000-07:00

It's been forever since I last wrote! Alas, much drama in the land of me, but...still chugging along. =) At least I'm working!

For the most part, I (like everyone else) try not to think about the bar. This is difficult when I am working in a law firm and constantly reminded of it, but I usually manage. It helps to have other distractions. However, I've given some thought to taking the bar exam in other states, and possibly even two states come February if CA doesn't pull through for me this time. I'm considering moving out of the state anyway, and this way, I'd have some options. Anyway, I can always practice certain niches of law in CA as long as I'm licensed somewhere.

Sadly, when weighing my options, my primary concern has been how long before exams results are released!!! I mean, seriously, I just CANNOT WAIT ANYMORE. It's torture. North Carolina seems to take about a month, and Colorado about two and a half months. I can't seem to find a comprehensive list, so does anyone else have any stats?

This is what it's come down to -- four years of college, three years of law school, and now, I can't wait a couple extra months. This process breaks you, it really does! =)

Eat. Pray. Love.

2007-08-08T15:39:00.000-07:00

I just ordered almost $100 worth of books online, all non-law related with the exception of one, and that doesn't count because it's basically an account of how sucky law school was. =) I love to read, and before you think I'm this esoteric intellectual, please note that due to years of intense schooling, my reading for fun books consist of romance novels, chick lit, and the occasional Oprah's Book Club. But as I used to tell my mom when she refused to buy me Sweet Valley High and bought me Grapes of Wrath, "Hey. Reading is reading!" Which I truly believe. English is a hard language to grasp, really. I don't know about you, but I never remember rules of grammar and go with "what sounds right." And that not only works, but ends up being in touch with current lingo and sounds more natural.

Thus, this blog will now include brief reviews of books I've read. I know many of you love to read, and it's often difficult to find the gems amongst the trash (although the line is not distinct sometimes - a person's trash is another person's treasure...). As I've mentioned, I just finished reading Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert.

I really liked it. It's broken up into 109 chapters -- 108 is the magic number for harmony or something, and used as the number of beads in a meditation necklace, with one extra outside of the necklace loop. She's broken it up into 3 (another magic number, the holy trinity, etc) chapters that talk about the 3 places she went to seek pleasure (Italy), prayer (india), and balance (Bali). The coincidences and the way the universe works in her life really reads like a fiction novel, made even more amazing in that this is, actually, non-fiction. Like I said, it's kind of Carrie Bradshaw meets yoga. I would highly recommend it for anyone who's ever felt anxious (hello, bar exam?!) about life and unsure of where your life is going (hello, bar exam results?!).

Step by step...

2007-08-06T17:08:00.000-07:00

Whew! It's been a whirlwind weekend. Husband and I went away for the weekend to a wedding (seems we have 5-6 a year!) and every day was packed with people to see and things to do. SO nice to live like normal people and making plans without a great big cloud looming overhead!

I feel like a toddler taking her first steps in life these days...by that I mean that law school and the ensuing year has been fraught with tension, anxiety, stress, and uncertainty. You know what I mean. It's not regret so much as being, well, tired. I don't even know what I'm doing, and I find myself envying people who have regular, 9-5 jobs and a normal life. My life is defined by bursts of intense studying, months of worrying, and a yo-yo-ing career. Honestly, at this point, I crave routine and stablility.

I'd like to find some balance, and peace within myself. I've been reading a book by Elizabeth Gilbert called Eat. Pray. Love. and it's excellent. It was a NYT best seller and it's about a woman's pursuit of balance, love, and peace in her life. It's like Carrie Bradshaw finds yoga! But also very suitable for men to read. I'm looking for some good books to read these days, eating well, hanging out with friends, and watching movies. Rush Hour 3, anyone? =)

The Price of Looking Good

2007-07-31T23:42:00.000-07:00

Ever find yourself getting used to seeing 9 year olds in Chanel sunglasses, drinking water bought at Sephora, and paying over $100 a month to join a gym? There's an overstimulation of the shallow here in LA. And after a while, you get somewhat desensitized. You don't realize that THIS JUST ISN'T NORMAL until, well, someone not from here tells you that it's not. Or when you've been out of the loop so long that you feel like you're not from around here and you get to see this world from a new perspective.

Ever since Those Days That Can't Be Named, I've been cautiously venturing out and meeting people. I have the week off work, and you know that with free time comes the spending of cash. Many of the meeting places with people are in shopping areas. Such is the nature of LA. I found myself buying a $15 deodorant and Beauty Water. I've also bought a lot of other things. And what I really want now is an Equinox gym membership. But at over $100 a month, it's a bit pricey...or is it?

I have an excellent gym in my apt complex, but it doesn't offer me classes, which I love. Do I need Mat Pilates, Yoga Glow, Boot Camp and Brand New Booty classes? And does it make sense that I'm sure to go to the gym more often if I pay so much for it? And really, considering how much people spend on cigarettes and Starbucks per month (none of which I do), isn't a mere $100 a month on my health and appearance justifiable?

Because really, after the post-bar blues, you at least want to look and feel fabulous. And in 100+ days, when results come out, you REALLY want to -- at LEAST -- look good.

Life is going on...

2007-07-30T11:26:00.000-07:00

Well, my skin is getting better and I've had alcohol twice since the bar exam! In a lucky twist of fate, I don't have to return to work until Friday, so I've got some time to decompress and catch up on the details of my life that have been neglected for the past two months. I've packed my bar books away, unpacked everything, and have made a good start on organizing my place. Today, I'm going to do exciting things such as buy a rug, go to the grocery store, stop by the post office, return DVDs, and go to the gym!

My nesting instincts kick into full mode in these situations, when I need to have control over my life. I like to organize everything. I do believe that many eating disorders occur in situations like this, when people need to "control" something...not to fear, I will never have a problem eating!

Current Mood: Still trying to calm down, cautiously relieved, with periodic twists of anxiety.

Are we all happy yet?

2007-07-27T12:28:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning and did 50 PMBR questions before I realized I didn't have to anymore! Just kidding.

Just kidding!

I actually did wake up to thoughts of rule elements, and had a moment of the usual tiredness and grudging attempts to motivate myself though. And then that mood switched to jubilant gratefulness, and then back to a quiet despair. I don't do well post-bar exam, until weeks later and the memories subside. I'm not completely depressed, and VERY glad it's over, but I always feel very blah.

I didn't post yesterday because after the exam, I just wanted to get the hell out of there and I was driving back home for a couple of hours. I stopped briefly at home to upload my answers then went straight back out for a glass of wine. This glass of wine has been on my thoughts for the past 2 months. I had 2, and the bartender gave me a shot, and I was done for. It was weird being amongst people who had no idea what the bar exam was about. And again, I realized that for most of the world, this exam means NOTHING. Nice.

One particularly funny moment comes to mind when this guy asked me my name. I tried to ignore him, but he kind of grabbed my shoulders and turned me to face him. He asked again. I replied, "California is a community property state. All earnings during marriage are presumed to be..." HA! How funny is that? And I kept talking about rules! Every so often, one would spurt out, like a leak.

All right, on to Day 3 analysis. Again, I don't know. I never know. I'm never one of those people who walk out feeling good, and that's just because I really don't know! I'm sure I identified the subjects properly (yay, me) and seemed to have hit the major issues, but some rules were murky and analysis could have been shaky as well. I'm going to discuss what I wrote, and feel free discuss it. If you don't want to know, stop reading now.

Essay 4: Con Law/Crimes. I saw this one and a string of expletives almost came flying out of my mouth. Murder again. Free Speech AGAIN! WTF? WTF? WTF? It is painfully clear that these people are sick and M-E-A-N. But I forged on. I discussed murder, voluntary mansluaghter, involuntary manslaughter, and felony murder. Dismissed all of them, included felony murder because the underlying felony was a misdemeanor. Didn't discuss arson at all. I said that he didn't break the statute because of mistake. This is probably wrong, but I just remember thinking...if the law specifically prohibits only the burning of A, how can he be liable for burning B, unless the law includes intent (like knowingly)? Whatever. I thought he was funny and didn't want him to get in trouble. =) I then went into a full blown speech analysis, where I thought the meat of the points were. Content-specific, protected speech, strict scrutiny, it's illegal. It's like burning the flag. You're allowed to do it.

Essay 5: So gross. P sues S for specific performance. DISCUSS. Maybe P and S should talk it over at a day at the spa...maybe P should take S out for lunch! Have P and S discussed mediation? I mean, really! This could go everywhere! And it did. The bad thing about these problems is that it provides little guidance so you're looking everywhere, under every rock and in every crevice to spot issues. It also wreaks havoc on organization. The good thing is that everyone will be all over the place, so there's not going to be this strict standard you're held to if you fail to do what they've seen over and over again. I went into this with a element by element description of specific performance, the first of which was the validity of the contract. This was where I went into everything -- all the misrep/fraud, statute of frauds, offer/acceptance, consideration, promissory estoppel/detrimental reliance, accord and satisfaction, unclean hands, UCC, merchant (I said P was not, but am realizing it could go either way). My misrep rule was shaky. Something along the lines of, she misrepresented a material fact! And the other person relied on it! But not on purpose! I basically found there was no contract, and thus no remedy, but went on to describe what else was needed for SP if the court found there was a contract.

Essay 6: At first I smiled. And launched into my favorite little paragraph about CA is a CP state. The smile faded. It was weird. I went through it quickly. I had time to spare! I knew something was NOT right. Child support, separate debt, entitled to reimbursement. Education debt, separate, entitled to reimbursement. Law degree, community entitled to some of it applying the 10 year/other spouse gets an education too rule. I threw in a Lucas analysis of the joint checking account and quickly dismissed it doesn't apply because it's not SP funds in there. Goodwill. Always hated it and thought it was funky. I mean, it's not even a tangible thing. What the heck is it? But I put that the whole $3000 is not enforceable because W has a CP interest in it, she didn't agree to it, and the courts would look to other things when valuing it. Then I went into a Pereira/Van Camp analysis. I went with Pereira, but I should have chosen VC. But at least they're both in there. I know people disagree on this last part, but...I had time, so I put it in.

PTB: I love letters. I had nice letterhead. I even italicized the signature at the end. I'm hoping for design points. Oh, the content? I organized it by the three issues. First two were quick and based on the statutes. Last one, I organized it by statute and case precedent. I finished it on time, and was feeling really tired at the end.

And that was it. Note that I didn't discuss any new subjects at all, ever. I honestly didn't think of it, except in the Evidence q on Day 1, where I made the conscious decision not to include it. I udnerstand that people saw those issues yesterday, and I wish I threw them in there too. But hopefully, it was minor and maybe just "bonus" points. They called time, the room burst into applause, and I hit the road.

And by the way? NO CIV PRO. I was muttering rules on my way into the exam room and cramming that thing into my head all summer long. Can't believe it!

But it's aaaaallllll over now... I hope everyone enjoys their first day of freedom. I'm looking forward to hearing about your continued adventures as you try to re-assimilate into the normal world!

Day Two

2007-07-25T20:47:00.000-07:00

Oh, who knows. It's so much easier to stress about Day 1 because I can nitpick, go over the notes, etc. With the MBEs, it's all a blur and much harder to remember what the heck happened. I thought PM was harder. I have no idea how people remember the MBEs in such detail and post them online. I remember last time, there were lists of like 50-75 questions, which is amazingly thorough.

I'm beat though. I have a headache and I can't stop eating! I don't eat breakfast because my stomach gets nervous in the mornings, so maybe it's okay? I don't know how to justify chicken, salad, a slurpee, Flaming Hot Cheetoes, a hot dog, and soon, a curry... I think it's the stress. I worked out yesterday because I was so freakin' sore and apparently, in my zombie like state, completely missed Blondie! She's a lovely lady with a rockin' French pedicure. =) It's good to see a friendly face around. Yesterday, I did end up going to Nordie's and it was weird being amongst the normal people. I felt like an intruder. I bought a YSL Touche Eclat lipgloss in number 11. It's a really great lipgloss -- long wearing, not sticky, simmery and that kool-aid punch look. I just needed to zone out for a bit. Then I went back and worked out, ate, and read over MBEs.

I'm going to say these are the issues to focus on for tomorrow: Civ Pro, with an emphasis on res judicata and collateral estoppel, Community Property, Remedies and Professional Responsibility. I'm also glancing through some Con Law Fed/State stuff and Agency stuff. I mean, Day 1 was all MBE subjects...we're bound to get CA tomorrow, no?

Everyone seems okay with Day 1. This probably means that the grading will be harder because people got the issues. Eh. I thought they were deceivingly straighforward until you tried to write about it, and then it got kind of funky because it was hard to organize. Also, what's interesting is that everyone I've met so far is a repeater...either I'm in the repeater section or February really sucked.

I'm seriously exhausted. I kinda took a nap after I got back because I just collapsed. I'm going to pick up my curry, read over my subjects and commit them to memory, and sleep. I may do a light workout.

One more day guys! Best of luck to everyone.

Day One

2007-07-24T17:49:00.000-07:00

I need a massage. During the last hour, my head starting pounding and my neck and shoulders were killing me. Short of dry-swallowing my tension headache pills, I had to soldier as I was running out of time on the PT and NEEDED TO FINISH.

Lord. So do we wanna talk about this? I'm just gonna write down what I remember for the sake of my own recollection of this wonderful day. I don't talk about it with people at the bar exam because I don't want to subject anyone to a post-mortem that they don't want to do, so if you're one of those people, don't read on!

Essay 1: Property/Contracts. I wrote about tenancy (said it was periodic), duty to pay rent, breach of contract, duty to repair, quiet enjoyment...er...don't remember...

Essay 2: Torts. Products Liability with a funky Civ Pro twist. Surely we didn't need to talk about Civ Pro except to say that the motion should be granted or denied? Or God. So yeah..design defects, contributory negligence, comparative negligence, strict products liability analysis, negligence analysis, indemnification...

Essay 3: Evidence. Seemed scarily straight forward. Droned on and on about relevance, hearsay, exceptions, said one of the statements was nonhearsay (anyone else?) and I don't know...

PT A: Memo to the judge. It looked okay reading through it, and then when I started, I thought, "This is so broad!" What are the issues? Give me some guidance! But I muddled through and finished and said that the judge should rule against the motion based on my excellent, objective legal analysis. =)

I don't know know how people remember all the details afterwards. As you can see by my ramblings above, I barely remember what happened. And I'm doing my best to forget. I'm glad Day 1 is done. I think it's the hardest day, because like Richard said, anything goes. Day 2 is 6 subjects, Day 3 is narrowed down.

How do I feel? Murky. Everything is kind of murky. I'm gonna need to kick ass the next two days. Is it okay to feel depressed? Do people feel depressed after and still pass? I know they say they do, but I don't think it's true...I think deep down,they feel okay about it. I want to know about the people who, deep down in their bones, feel depressed and they still pass! =)

I'm sitting in the hotel main lounge, with free internet access. Blondie, if you're reading this, don't pay for it in your room! You can access it free in the lobby/bar area. Am debating hitting the Nordstrom Anniversary Sale because I feel like a zombie. Or partaking in a glass of wine. I haven't had wine in so long though, I'm afraid to start because I may not stop...

I hope everyone got through okay. May you all sleep well tonight and wake up bright-eyed and busy tailed for tomorrow!

Like trying to hold water in your cupped hands...

2007-07-23T11:26:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid to shake my head too hard because some detail of law will fall out. I woke up today and tried to read through some MBE tips. I'm going to hit the gym downstairs while reading a "fun" book and do some light ellipticals, eat, pack, and head on over to the hotel. During the drive, I will risk an accident by going through my Hot Topics cheat sheets and attempting to hammer some details into my head.

I'll then check in, get settled, and meet up with Blondie. Followed by light review, relaxing again with "fun" book, hitting the Ambien, and in bed by 10:30.

Wouldn't it be nice if we had 2 days of testing? Then after tomorrow, we can say, "Oh, one more day!" I think it's psychological benefits would be monumental. ;) Anyway, to everyone out there who's read this blog, thanks for all your support and comments. It's been great having such acceptance and support from similarly situated people! You know as well as I do that it's difficult to find that in us law folks (i.e. law school!). This is my first and only blog, and I'm not one to share my dirty laundry, so it's been a very therapeutic experience for me. I really enjoyed following everyone else's blogs too -- I hope you'll all keep it up after the bar!

As for me, I'll try and post throughout the exam and will also continue posting afterwards. I think at this point, we can only look forward and not beat ourselves up about what we "should have" done. We have to do the best we can with what we have now. And most of all, let's keep this in perspective. We have our family, health, and our friends...passing the bar is a bonus.

That being said, let's rock this thing!

Performance Tests...

2007-07-22T12:08:00.000-07:00

Man, these suck. I plan on looking them over, but I haven't done anything substantive. After all, I've taken this exam before, I've done full-length PTs. I usually do well on one with a 75 and screw up the other...

I was wondering if anyone has the point break down from the NCBE for the February 2007 PTs and if they'd be willing to email that to me? You can contact me at the email listed on the profile. Much appreciated!!

The Last 24 Hours

2007-07-22T00:03:00.001-07:00

Well, Sunday's pretty much it for all day studying. Monday is spent getting to the hotel, settling in, and doing some light studying and basically just trying to get a decent night's sleep. Today, I focused on some spot check review on Contracts (always afraid of it!!) and had a thorough review of Remedies.

I'm nervous.

I know the stuff in theory, but it's hard for me to memorize elements for everything. Reasonable, foreseeable, justifiable reliance, causation, intent...these words are in everything in some combination or another and it's all just kinda muddles together sometimes! Oh Lord, I pray it comes together in time!

Tomorrow, I plan on trying to complete a full on MBE from the Strategies & Tactics book. If I can't do all 200, I may settle for 100 because I'm also fine tuning and printing out my Hot Topics checklists/rules for each subject. I also have to do laundry so I can have my bar exam outfits clean and ready to pack.

Monday will be spent going over the checklists, doing a review of new CA subjects, and reading through some PTs. I'm going to listen to PMBR CDs on the 2 hour drive to San Diego. Well, this is the home stretch...good luck, everyone!

The Girl Who Passed

2007-07-21T17:27:00.000-07:00

I'm in Harry Potter mode. Guess what, folks? I stayed up all night and read Book 7. Yup, some might call it crazy...and really, it's not that I couldn't wait a week, but it was because it was going to be everywhere and I didn't want the book ruined for me! So I thought, you know what? Screw it.

And for 7 delicious hours, I lost myself in the world of Harry Potter. And yes, I'm paying for it today. I slept a couple of hours, woke up, and have studied. I will continue to study and go to sleep at a decent hour, dead tired. And though I'm tired, I do feel like I can study. And hopefully, this will jump start my sleep schedule to something resembling normal before the exam. I'm really looking forward to going to bed and actually falling asleep instead of laying awake, tossing and turning while my brain races for hours on end.

I needed the escape. And the book? It was damn good. ;)

We can make this happen!

2007-07-20T00:43:00.001-07:00

I don't think we can underestimate the law of attraction and the power of our subconscious. In my last post, the comments discuss the probability of reviewing a subject right before the exam, only to have it show up.

It's a matter of thinking smart, and thinking positive. We've all heard the predictions. We know that though the CA State Bar Examiners are a vile group, the stats are still helpful. Last time, people were predicting Evidence as a certainty. Sure enough, it was there. By honing in on a couple of subjects, especially on Wednesday night after 3 essays are out of the way, we have an excellent chance of predicting an essay and getting it right. Now, I'm no math whiz, but odds are actually in our favor that we can predict an essay and be prepared for it. Can you imagine reviewing Civ Pro like a maniac RIGHT BEFORE the exam, opening the test, and finding a Civ Pro question right there?! The sense of relief alone would do much for the psyche.

And of course, anyone's who's read The Secret or anything on the law of attraction knows that if we think it's gonna be on there, we're sending out waves that will make it be on there! And you know what? At this point, I'm all for it!

So, this is what I think is a "must" for the exam:

1. Professional Responsibility is always on there to some degree. Know it.

2. Remedies is almost always on there. Know it.

The above two are almost guaranteed, so we need to milk those points.

3. I'm thinking Civ Pro and Community Property.

Other things that I'm hearing a lot of buzz about are Corporations 10b5, Con Law defamation/invasion of privacy.

Thoughts?

One Subject at a Time...

2007-07-19T12:15:00.000-07:00

Literally. One subject at a time. It's great. I know one subject, then I move on to the next subject, and then I know that subject...unfortunately, I've just forgotten the last subject!

So, if they test on only one subject, the one I happen to know at the time, I should be just fine.

Tylenol Simply Sleep

2007-07-17T19:39:00.000-07:00

Well, this stuff sure works. I thought I'd try Tylenol's new sleep aid because my sleep schedule is out of whack these days. Many of us are sleeping late, waking up late, or unable to sleep at all! I'm concerned that due to this crazy schedule, it would be difficult to try and sleep at around 10:00 before the bar exam and ensure a good night's sleep.

So I thought I'd give Tylenol Simply Sleep a try. I took it around 12:30, and fell asleep at 1:00. It was pretty easy to fall asleep. I woke up in a groggy haze twice, and one time I had to use the bathroom. That's pretty typical, though I usually have to go to the bathroom around dawn, not when it's still dark outside. I was like a zombie. And then I proceeded to sleep until 12:00. That's right. 11 hours of sleep and I was still groggy when I woke up!

Luckily, the grogginess subsided and I wasn't sleepy during the day, but STILL. Two innocuous little blue pills (I guess they say the same thing about Viagra!) packed a lot of punch. I'm thinking maybe 1 would work best. Just to take the edge off nerves and help me fall asleep...

So there you go. My experience with Tylenol Simply Sleep. Do I recommend it? Yes, I think it works. I don't know if there's anything out there that doesn't give you that weird groggy feeling upon waking though, unless you take lower dosages. So I would recommend a lower dosage of this stuff if you're sensitive to medications, as I tend to be.

Civ Pro = Insanity

2007-07-16T23:49:00.000-07:00

The more I read, the more panicked I get, because the more I realize how much I DON'T KNOW! Today's topic was Civ Pro. Important, because it's one of those hot topics to be tested this time around. I thought I knew it. But I thought wrong. Now tell me, is this correct?

A plaintiff sues defendant for personal injuries stemming from negligence. He can’t later sue for property damage arising from the same negligent act as the previous suit because of res judicata? Because res judicata bars an action arising out of the same transaction?

I'm losing my mind. Every essay I go through in civ pro, there are parts that I'm truly baffled by. This is not good.

Bling H2O!

2007-07-15T23:04:00.000-07:00

How freakin' insane is this? It's $35 a bottle and all the crazies are flocking to upscale bars and stores in LA and NYC to buy it. You can, of course, purchase it online at www.blingh2o.com. I'm all for high quality water and pretty packaging (I'm partial to Voss myself), but this is kinda the ghetto fab of all water. It's decked out in Swarovski crystals, which I suppose is to meant to justify the ridiculous price. And honestly? It doesn't even look that good.

Which is not to say that I wouldn't take it if someone offered it to me. And yes, I'm a tad curious about how $35 bottles of water would taste. But I have not reached such levels of high maintenance that I think this is reasonable (by an objective standard...haha...law...). What's next? Charging for air? Oh yeah, we already do that...flavored O2 (aka AIR!) at oxygen bars.

I showed this picture to hubby, opened my mouth to make some scathing remark on the utter craziness of it, and was immediately cut off with, "Are you serious? You want to buy a $35 BOTTLE OF WATER?!"

Um, no.

I merely wanted to point out that it was funny, that it was another example of our indulgent and decadent society, and have a giggle about it. Geez. When I get offended and loftily remind him that no, I was just sharing a bit of news with him and EXCUSE ME FOR BREATHING, he snorts and reminds me that I like Voss and Fiji for their packaging.

I do not.

It actually tastes better than other water! And even so, I don't buy it often, because I have priorities and water, as long as it's clean, is water. My money is better spent on shoes.

But hey, this Bling H2o? Pretty funny. It's good to know that as we slowly lose our minds over this exam, we're not missing out on anything important.

Bring it on, baby.

2007-07-15T01:34:00.001-07:00

I came across something today and it makes a lot of sense.

This bar exam?
I'm not going to pass it because people say that I can.
I'm going to pass it because of people who think that I can't.

Yeah. Nothing like a little disparaging underestimation to get the juices flowing. So think about the people who silently take glee (evil bitches!) in your failure, the people who have expressed doubt in your ability to be a lawyer, hell, the people who looked at you funny in the library...

And prove them wrong.

Lions and Tigers and Bears!

2007-07-14T11:19:00.001-07:00

I was reading Frustrated Bar Examinee's latest post on the summary of the bar exam experience and it had me laughing out loud. But then it mentioned something about wild animals and that sent me into one of my lightning-fast mood changes, and I thought, "Oh my God. Wild Animals. WHAT IF IT'S ON THE ESSAY?" So I had to look it up. And for the convenience of those of you who may have panicked in this very same way, here it is:

Strict Liability for Wild Animals
An owner is strictly liable to licensees and invitees for injuries caused by wild animals as long as that person didn't do anything to bring about the injuries.

No Strict Liability for Domestic Animals
Unless he has knowledge of that particular animal's dangerous propensities that are not common to the species.

Strict Liability Not Available to Trespassers
Strict liability will generally not be imposed imposed in favor trespassers in the absence of the owner's negligence. However, a landowner may be liable on intentional tort grounds fo rinjuries inflicted by vicious watchdogs.

Now, we can all just calm down.

A Conversation that went Everywhere

2007-07-13T18:40:00.000-07:00

Scene: Borders.

(Cell phone vibrates. It's husband.)

Me: (Quietly) Hi.

Husband: What are you doing?

M: What do you think I'm doing? I'm at Borders.

H: Oh. I'm home from work.

M: Ok.

H: I'm gonna go to the gym. Do you have to study tonight?

M: Yes.

H: What do you want to eat for dinner?

M: I don't know. There's stuff in the fridge.

H: Hey, did you pay my parking this month? I can't get out of the garage.

M: Um...I don't know. I don't think so.

H: Well, I can't get out of the garage!

M: Then go pay it!

H: Where -

M: It's the entrance on Randall St.!

H: Where's Randall?

M: The street directly behind us!! The entrance! It's the only one!

H: Oh. How -

M: Take the checkbook. It's on the desk, labeled, "Checkbook."

H: Oh, ok. (Sounds a bit defeated)

M: (Agitated) What's wrong?! Are you mad?

H: (Confused) No...

M: Because if something's wrong, just tell me! Are you not telling me because I'm studying and you're waiting to tell me after the bar so I'm not distracted? Because it makes me even more stressed out!

H: Nothing's wrong.

M: Just tell me now!

H: No, nothing's wrong!

M: (Somewhat calmer) Okaaaaay..... I guess I'll see you at home in about an hour and a half.

The tears cometh

2007-07-13T11:43:00.000-07:00

Ah, yes. Right about now, everyone starts to cry. Usually for no apparent reason (well, aside from the obvious fact that we're taking a 3-day bitch of an exam upon which our entire careers hinge). Up until now, I hadn't cried, which is not to say I didn't want to, but just that it was always GO GO GO and I just sort of shoved it aside.

This morning, I woke up, and in my sleep induced fuzzy stage, recalled all kinds of OTHER things, things unrelated to the bar, things I've ALREADY DEALT WITH, and the tears began to roll. Had myself a quick pity session which inevitably included the bar. I picked up my Barbri essay book (located conveniently next to my bed) and read through a Contracts essay through my tears.

What a way to start the day off right.

I can't even think.

2007-07-12T17:43:00.000-07:00

Today I ordered an Iced Soy Vanilla Latte at Borders and got a Hazelnut Latte. At least I think it was Hazelnut. I don't like Hazelnut, so I've rarely tasted it. I didn't return it. I just kinda tried to drink it. Why? Because I always feel bad returning food, because the people behind the counter seemed unfriendly, because I couldn't muster up the energy, and because I wasn't even sure what the thing tasted like. I figured it had caffeine and that should do the trick.

I find myself wanting to sleep 9-10 hours a day. Anyone else sleeping way too much? I do drag myself out of bed and feel okay an hour later, but this is odd. While I was working, I slept less than 8 hours and woke up super early. Of course, I hated it, but I did it and was reasonably ok. And this was only 1 short week ago.

In other news, the itching has stopped. I think all my products/washing have been working! But the dull, throbbing headache persists. Today is Contracts day, maybe that's it. You know, it all seems reasonably straighforward until you try to apply it to an essay. And then it all goes to hell. Do you ever just look at a Contracts essay and all these things run through your mind (like ooh, Anticipatory Repudiation, time is of the essence, impossibility, material breach!) but you have NO IDEA how to format it???

SIGH. Must continue on. Oh, for those who are interested, Sophia Kinsella is out with a new book under a new name -- Madeleine Wickham, I think? I don't really get it. I forget the title, but it's about a gold-digging but loveable gorgeous girl who meets rich men at funerals and develops morals along the way (and of course, finds love). Good for a casual study break!

Yes, I'm studying for the bar!

2007-07-11T21:26:00.000-07:00

You know...I'm probably being hyper-sensitive, but I find it supremely annoying when people interrupt my studying to ask me, "Are you studying for the bar?" And it's always people who have already taken, and passed, the exam. I'm tempted to reply, "No, I'm just doing this for FUN." The ones who are currently studying for it know better than to interrupt a person who's strung out on nerves and caffeine. They know because they're going through it themselves. And if they do speak, it's usually just a weary acknowledgment that we're all in hell together.

What possesses the people who have already passed to want to bother the less fortunate?

1. Smug superiority. Let's face it, people can be assholes. And as lawyers, this character trait is bred and encouraged along with competitiveness. As alarming and saddening as it may be, the sight of us toiling away makes them feel better about themselves.

2. Complete ignorance and a desire to talk. They've miraculously forgotten the horror of bar exam studying and, fueled by yet another undesirable attorney trait of wanting to impart knowledge to the masses, want to share their "tips" with you. This reason is marginally better than the above, but still reeks of sanctimonious bullsh*t.

3. Maybe they're hitting on me. This displays an utter lack of game. Look at me. I'm studying. It sucks. You know it sucks. Unless you're going for the whole, "vulnerable-prey-let's-move-in-for-the-kill-while-it's-weak" approach, isn't it completely obvious that I'm not really looking for love right now???

You know, and I know, that when people are studying for the bar, the default approach is to let them have their peace. As with a wild animal, you may cautiously approach, but you let us sniff you out and IF, and only if, we display some sign of welcome, do you initiate anything. Because we're not stable right now. We've more than likely put aside our social grace. And our world consists of 14 subjects, none which involve your hilarious adventure trying to get your fans fixed at Sears.

Scalps & Starbucks

2007-07-09T10:43:00.000-07:00

You know it's bad when you down 2 DayQuils, 2 Advils, and a multi vitamin but still can't shake the headache. You know the one. The one that comes at you with a dull throbbing induced by hours of staring at your computer screen.

Add to that and itchy scalp. I've mentioned the stress-induced itching before, right? It makes me shower very frequently, because I never feel "clean." I'm sure there are some psychological issues in there, but suffice it to say that the bar exam process makes me feel dirty. All that washing of my hair makes my scalp dry, but I can't stand not washing my hair every day! So I went to Sephora and spent $67 on a Rene Furterer intense scalp oil treatment AND a dry shampoo that's supposed to get me through the every-other-day-shampooing. The theory is that this combination will relieve my scalp and my obsession for clean hair.

And just yesterday? I was sitting in Starbucks, itching away, when I kept noticing all the pretty girls in their cute clothes and impeccable makeup breezing in to order their venti non-fat, skinny iced vanilla lattes. They were carefree, chatting on their cell phones, rummaging through their Louis Vuittons, and breezing back out the door, off somewhere fabulous. And I just sat there in my corner, makeup-free, in sweats, bleary eyed and itchy. I swear, they glanced over at me and shuddered before quickly looking away. You know how sometimes you see people and you're kinda embarrassed for them and can't really look at them?

Yep, that person is me.

I need to go to a less fashionable Starbucks. Back to Border's for me.

Not Too Shabby

2007-07-07T22:22:00.000-07:00

Managed to do two 3 hour sets of work at the library and at Borders, followed by a couple hours at home. I have to break it up into pieces like that, or I start to itch (literally). I got through every single essay posted on the Cal Bar website (since like 2001 or something?) and listed all the essays. I'm typing up a list of the issues and the number of times they come up on the bar. Tomorrow, I'm going to write out the rule statements for each issue, by subject, and use that as my "Hot Topics!" cheat sheet on focus areas. I figure it'll be good for a general overview of important issues as well. I also tried to get through some Property questions, and am still muddling through them as a matter of fact!

Now, I'm going to type up my list and watch some "Where the Heart Is" (love that Wal-mart baby movie!) with husband and eat some sushi. The cold is still kicking in full gear but thank God, it's mostly congestion and occasional coughing. It's tolerable. I'm hoping to get lots of rest and nipping this NOW. Let's keep up the pace folks...the end is in sight. =)

Do or Die

2007-07-06T23:01:00.000-07:00

Post-4th of July = Do or Die time in the bar world. There are fiery debates ranging in bar exam world as to whether we can pass this thing if we just focus hard enough now. Many say that after the 4th is when the "serious" studying begins while others insist that it should have begun a month ago.

The truth probably lies somewhere in the middle, depending on the individual. The key is to study smart and to focus. It's not about the hours we log in, it's about the deliberate way we choose to study.

Now, if only I weren't sick. I've been feeling under the weather for about a week, and now I'm just a congested mess. Must. Push. Forward! In good news, today was my last day of work until after the bar. Thank God. After being completely distracted and guilty, I can now focus my full energy on studying. And yay, I don't have to wake up at 6:30 anymore!!!

Happy 4th of July!

2007-07-04T10:54:00.001-07:00

There's a nice feeling about everyone emerging from their respective bar exam misery and taking a moment to honor this most American of holidays. Even though my little cousin asked me who America was freed from oh so long ago and I had to think past BBQs and fireworks to recall exactly what this holiday was all about, all I know is that for me, the 4th of July is a time when friends and family get together in a show of unity and camaderie and enjoy the day. That, after all, is what America fought for -- the simple pleasure of enjoying life with those you love! To that end, we will overindulge in alcohol, food, and fireworks. How very American.

I love the summer in CA -- hot days followed by balmy nights, ice cream trucks, kids out on vacation, flip flops and light dresses...just the whole leisurely, idyllic pace of it all. I will try and do as many MBEs as possible, then head over to my uncle's for a sushi feast (odd, but yummy). Followed by a BBQ. I can't resist! I mean, this is what we're studying for, right? The most sacred of all documents? The Constitution of the United States of America? To celebrate the freedom of being an American? Freedom is not studying for the bar! The justifications will just keep on coming... =)

Take a moment...enjoy the day.

The CA Bar Exam Grading Process -- The Mystery Revealed

2007-07-03T17:37:00.000-07:00

I just met with a former bar grader and well-respected bar tutor today, and she explained the mystery of the CA Bar Exam grading process. At last! Knowing this lies the key to success -- because you know what they're looking for. If you already know this, then hooray. If not, then read on...

1. The graders get together in small groups for what is known as a calibration session. They go through the essays and have to come up with the relevant issues, assigning point values to each of them. So you can get 15 points for discussing easements, 10 points for nuisance, and so forth, for a total of 100-110 points. It can exceed 100 points because graders can also assign "bonus" points. So this group of graders (who have already written out their model versions of the answers) subjectively decide on the issues to be graded on, and the points they will assign to each.

2. So each group of graders are different and the ranges and point values are different. The grading is determined subjectively by grading groups and your grade depends on the group your essay gets assigned to. The crucial point is that you have to do a little mental point tally when you read your exam. Note what the big issues are and work it. You can miss issues entirely and still pass if you pick up points on other issues.

3. Each grader is expected to grade 25 essays for appx. 2 hours a night and given boxes of 100 essays with due dates. You do the math. Many graders will procrastinate and realize that they have to grade all 100 in one night! So your essay is down to 1-2 minutes per read. I know this point has been beaten to death, but YOU MUST MAKE IT EASY FOR GRADERS TO READ YOUR ESSAY. Break it down into headings and organize it. They're not going to look for it. Even if you have it, they may not see it.

4. If you're not sure if something is an issue, use it -- but sparingly. Don't be completely ridiculous. I'm talking about Hearsay exceptions and things like that. Graders will not dock points if you throw in extra. Remember, they give you points for spotting the issues and analyzing them. So if you have it in there, at least you'll get some points.

5. Sometimes you'll get a ridiculous question that seems to have no tangible areas of law. Reason through it. Spot the issue, state a rule, and analyze it. Use common sense. Often, you'll stumble across the rule even though you don't use the official name for it through your reasoning. Hey, you still get the points!

7. If you don't know the answer, argue both sides. Remember, you get points for spotting the issue, and points don't get deducted if you argue the other side!

8. Don't forget the basics -- read the question THOROUGHLY and know what the call of the prompt is.

9. ANALYZE. Especially if it's a "big points" issue -- you want to really show the grader you know what you're talking about. Often, the difference between a 50 and a 70 is because of analyzation. They both spot the same issues, but the 50 does a cursory job on analysis whereas the 70 really works through it. Ask yourself WHY, and discuss it.

10. This exam is about being savvy in knowing what the graders want, not about knowing the law cold. Knowing the law obviously helps you think out , organized, well-reasoned answers. But if you don't know it cold, you can still write out a well-reasoned answer. Just read the prompt carefully, use the words in the prompt, and reason it out with common sense.

Let me know if you have any specific questions about the grading process. If it's not something we discussed, I can get the answer for you!

Hmm...

2007-07-02T20:19:00.000-07:00

Do you find yourself thinking about absolutely everything else you need to do OTHER than study for the bar? I become positively obsessed. Today, I let the timer on my MBEs go on and on as I stressed about what I would take to the 4th of July party I'm going to.* And what I was going to wear. And what I needed to return at Target. And if I transferred funds to my checking account. I almost left Border's then and there to go do take care of these things. I think the mentality is that if I clear this stuff out of my head, then I can sit down and concentrate on studying. The problem is, it never ends. Every minute task looms in my head like a giant elephant in the room and picks at my mind as I ponder over the admissibility of evidence in an MBE question.

I think it's a sophisticated form of procrastination.

And unfortunately, the itching has started up again. I got up about 3 times yesterday, absolutely unable to sleep because the sheets and everything made me feel itchy. So now, I'm washing all my sheets. Again.

Another way to procrastinate.

* Oh, and that 4th of July party? I think I'm going with a really nice cake (I've been assigned dessert) and a fruit platter. I even bought a special platter from Target. It starts in the evening and will be over relatively early because, thankfully, people have work on Thursday. As such, I have the whole day to study. So I refuse to feel guilty...but I still kinda do.

Sunglasses, a Good Bag, and a Pedicure

2007-07-01T13:01:00.001-07:00

I'll throw my hair up in a messy ponytail. Makeup is hurriedly applied, if at all. Flip flops, jeans, and a tank are considered fully dressed. Many things are a wreck, especially these days. But I can still feel human as long as I'm out the door with a great pedi, fabulous bag, and sunglasses on.

At a time when everything else is sliding downhill, it's important to feel human.

TGIF!

2007-06-29T16:36:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Blondie!

Congratulations on running 10 miles, Blonde Blogger!

Just a couple of shout outs. =) As a follow up to yesterday, I don't know for SURE if I've been found out, but I know internet activity has been tracked. I actually don't care anymore, because I haven't said anything about the job, really, I'll be outta there soon, and I can always find a job that I enjoy much more.

TGIF, everyone. Seriously. I'm just so happy to be able to sleep in tomorrow. Is there anything more wonderful than the feeling of waking up in the morning, feeling frantic and wondering if you've overslept, then realizing that it's the weekend and you can sleep in??? Some exciting stuff to look forward to this weekend: Picking up my hemmed Paige jeans from the tailor, as well as my black Bermuda shorts. Original hems on the jeans, folks. It looks SO much better. Going to rent Casablanca on DVD. I've never seen it! I am the biggest romance junkie, so I have high expectations for this one. Yoga lesson on Sunday. Must. Learn. To. Relax. And finally, gonna get in a couple yummy meals -- mac and cheese and sushi? Not together of course.

And meanwhile, I will be trying to read through Civ Pro, Corps, and Evidence. And do a Civ Pro essay. And as many MBEs as possible. I do them in sets of 17 and review the answers after each one (that's how Micromash is set up). Then I have this word document set up like an ongoing table on split screen and I type in the rule in flashcard format if I missed the question or I got lucky. I plan on printing this out near the end and reviewing them. So far, the method seems to be working. I've hit Evidence, Crim Pro, and Property (a little) on the MBES. Afraid to do Contracts, but I will soon.

Here's hoping I hit the books hard this weekend!!

A Chilling Effect On Free Speech

2007-06-28T15:24:00.000-07:00

I fear the integrity of my blog has been compromised. My anonymity may be no more, professionally speaking. I found out that my boss has been checking on my "blogging" activities, and while I understand his concern over this during work hours, I feel this is an invasion of my personal life. Now, I'm not certain over this (because after all, who really goes on some crazy investigation to determine which blog belongs to whom?) but even the thought makes me feel like my personal diary has been published with my picture in the Los Angeles Times.

This is used as an outlet for stress and general musing. We've all been able to alleviate tension in our respective lives by being able to express whatever insights and foolishness on blogs. And for some, the anonymous nature helps us to say what we may not ordinarily say for fear of being offensive or looking stupid.

Some of us use this as apublic tool to keep friends up to date and there's no need to be anonymous. Others use this as a way of saying things they would NEVER say if their identities were known. I guess I fall somewhere in the middle. Though I don't mind if people know who I am (some do), I mind mixing my professional life with my personal life. Although it was my own fault for going online at work and allowing records to be made, it also seems a bit invasive to thoroughly examine each recorded URL and try and ferret out information on my personal life.

I have no clear answers and I'm certainly not going to examine this further. I don't even want to go there. But suffice it to say that I am not pleased with any intrusions into my personal life, and I feel somewhat indignant at the fact that I can no longer be truly free with my words. Thus, I will no longer be referring to work in my blogs. I don't want to shut this down completely, because it's such a therapeutic outlet (and dammit, you're all a great group of support!) but I'll have to filter it. And since work is often a big source of stress in all our lives, it's a shame to have to suppress my ravings!

I mean really, doesn't it suck? It's so nice to have an unfiltered forum in which to release all the stress during this time, and now it's been compromised. Nothing is ever absolutely anonymous, I guess. So guys? Be careful at work. =)

It's Not Fair.

2007-06-27T22:12:00.000-07:00

Amazingly, I've been doing somewhat well in my Evidence MBEs and scoring around 70% despite the fact that I haven't reviewed Evidence yet. I think it's because I studied for it at length last time, knowing it was going to be an essay. I didn't do so well on that essay though. Maybe the MBEs are a little easier, because if I see an answer choice, it jogs my memory and I can tell it looks right, but I have a hard time just pulling out the rules and writing about them in an essay. I don't know...but it makes me feel better about my Property score, which was a 35%!! I mean geez...I think I could have chosen all Cs and statistically scored higher than that.

I'm also going through Civ Pro. I'm not creating new outlines, but working on the ones I have and reviewing them. I never realized how much time making outlines took. This frees me up to really review the substantive material and really understand the concepts as opposed to simply memorizing them.

A friend of mine who is with a very well respected bar tutoring company is of the opinion that NONE of the new subjects will be tested next month. He says that it wouldn't be fair if people who failed last time fail again. His reasoning is that if they test the new subjects AFTER July, then everyone is in the same boat, with the same number of subjects to study. Well, unless you fail July again...NO!! We won't go there.

But really, are the bar examiners what one would call fair? Fair is not letting us go through law school and $150K in debt only to bar our only avenue of practicing. Fair is letting us take some damn water into a 3 day test. Fair is not testing Con Law Commercial Speech two exams in a row. And most of all, fair is not having a 36% pass rate!!!

The Reign of Terror

2007-06-26T22:17:00.000-07:00

Oh Lordie...judging by the mutual panic and despair that are covering the bar exam blogs, we are entering into the home stretch as the safety of June wanes and the terror of July begins. Many say that the 4th of July is the turning point, and it's do or die time then. You know how it goes -- we start panicking and putting in the time a couple weeks before the exam and then moan, "Oh, if only I studied this hard for the whole month, I'd be so ready!" Well, let's not do that this time! Let us learn from our mistakes and at the very least, banish the regret of not preparing hard enough this last month.

To that end, I think it's important to eat well. Since most of us are sitting on our asses 8-10 hours a day (watching tv, sleeping, and studying occasionally!), we're probably not burning all that many calories, although those books ARE heavy! And despite the trips to the gym, we're simply not moving that much. And unfortunately, when I'm depressed, or studying, I like to munch. Bad, bad, bad!

Since we need food to alleviate the depression and keep our minds and bodies fit, I thought I'd compile a list of reasonably healthy, easy, and yummy meals/snacks to sustain us through the terror.

1. Pizza bread. My husband's concoction -- spaghetti sauce, low fat mozzarella cheese, and whole wheat English muffins. Throw it together in a toaster oven and you get a tasty and crunchy meal!

2. Lean Pockets. I'm into the whole crunchy, warm, cheesy thing, if you haven't noticed.

3. Green tea. Not exactly a snack, but really good for you, especially if you don't drink a lot of water and consume too much sugarey drinks, like I do!

4. Trader Joe's frozen soy corn dogs. Amazingly authentic and easy to make.

5. Trader Joe's chicken fried rice. Just pop in the microwave or oven.

6. Smart Puffs. A good alternative to chips, but only in moderation!

7. Dark cherries. They're good this time of year!

8. Bell Peppers. Red and yellow are sweet. Cut them up, put them in the fridge, and they'e a healthy snack.

9. Peanut Butter. On toast, english muffins, crackers, you name it!

10. Edamame. SOoo good for you! And tasty!

And of course, there are my vices: Taco Bell, fried chicken, and flaming hot cheetoes. And nachos. And Spam. We all need our happy food, but only once in a while...hmm...like maybe now...

Picking at my nose

2007-06-25T21:48:00.000-07:00

Read it carefully: Picking at my nose, not picking my nose! You know how when you start studying, you sometimes get all caught up in some other, unrelated detail and obsess over it? I have a bad tendency to pick at myself as I study, and I relish picking off pieces of cuticle and dry bits off my face. Gross, I know. It's this innate inability to stop grooming myself or something. And when I'm bored (as I often am when studying) I pick.

So I found these small bumps on my nose, right on the bottom and on the side. Upon closer inspection, I see that they're itty bitty whiteheads. You can't even see them, just feel them. "They must come out!," I decide. So I proceed to squeeze and tweeze my way into my nose. And gouged out two small holes. The next morning, I had two bright red scabs that hurt on my nose that can't even be covered with makeup.

Now, I'm picky about my skin. If there's one thing I firmly believe, it's that no amount of makeup in the world is going to make up for bad skin. I use La Mer at night, and a Japanese day lotion with SPF even when I'm poor, like now. Good skin helps a girl pull off an effortless, bare make-up look that works well when one has no time (like now). And now I've gone and ruined it.

I have to wait for it to heal and go away. And hope that I can stop myself from picking at it in the meantime.

Hot.

2007-06-25T21:42:00.001-07:00

It's very warm these days... Great weather for sitting out by the pool! I've done this a few times a week, after work and before studying. Tried to read out there too. There's something very appealing about sitting out by the pool while listening to the sound of rain on my iPod!

I've continued my Property lectures on iPod and am finishing up the CA Evidence distinctions on my outline (thanks Grand Poobah and Blondie!). I'm a little uncertain about Prop 8. Basically, it states that all relevant evidence is admissible except for the 7 exclusionary rules that they list in the outline? I'm a moron -- the language about "exempting" exclusionary rules reads like a double negative in my mind and confuse me!

This Weekend.

2007-06-24T16:02:00.001-07:00

I went out Friday night AND Saturday night. And drank. In short, I've completed 17 MBE questions and listened to 1 Property lecture. And that one lecture was on Future Interests, which I decided I am NOT going to kill myself to learn. Anyone else feel this way about Future Interests? It'll be a couple MBEs and no essay....right? ;)

So anyway, I think I just felt like a lunatic and going out these past nights made me feel like I was doing something really daring...like leaving my family and job and running off to Italy with someone named Giovanni to live in his little Tuscan villa and drink Chianti all day...but I digress. My point being, I felt that apprehension and excitement of being a big risk taker, which just goes to show how much of a dork I am.

I hope everyone else has had more productive weekends and that you're maintaining the stress levels adequately. I feel tired, but have settled in to finish up CA Evidence. May the last remnants of this weekend be productive!

I can't help but wonder...am I losing it?

2007-06-22T09:23:00.000-07:00

In an attempt to decompress and get past this whole studying apathy, I thought I should get a few get-away-from-it-all fun books to read while munching on something yummy. So, at Border's, I thought I'd exchange a book I bought before that I didn't want for some new ones. Using my rewards card. And gift card. Apparently, this was very difficult. And given my precarious mental state these days, I tend to overreact to situations.

Blawgin: Hi. I'd like to do an exchange. Here's the receipt. (Hand over old book and new books). Here's my Border's Rewards card.

Clerk: Whoa. One at a time!

Blawgin: (Puzzled) Um, ok. I'd like to do an exchange...

Clerk: I don't think we do returns over 30 days. This was about 35 days ago.

B: Yeah...well, this is an exchange.

C: I don't think I can do a return past 30 days.

B: (Frustrated, but trying to be nice) Well, it says here (pointing to back of receipt) that although you can't do a return past 30 days, you can do an exchange in the form of store credit at the book's current price.

C: Well, I don't know about that. Let me check. (Proceeds to cover microphone and mumble into it like some wannabe Secret Service agent)

Time passes...more time passes....line grows longer...impatient customers begin to mutter...

B: Excuse me, if you'd just look here, it says in the back that you can do an exchange!!

She ignores me.

B: Excuse me.

Ignores me.

Finally, an efficient looking clerk walks briskly by, with a pile of books.

C: Hey, can I do a exchange after 30 days?

Efficient clerk: Sure. It says so on the back of the receipt!

C: Hmm...does it? (Looks to me) I guess we can do it for you this time.

B: (Excuse me? Is she doing me a favor?! Is this not store policy?!) Gee, thanks. I also want to use my rewards card, coupon, and gift card.

C: Whoa, hold on. One at a time.

(SIGH)

My blood pressure just shot up recalling yesterday's incident. I seriously almost turned into a complete screaming bitch. Fear of bad karma and a need to return to this Border's were the only reasons that stopped me from doing so.

The world needs to be kinder to us right now. We cannot have these irritants, they throw us completely off. Other things that have made me want to hurt people?

1. My yoga pants were hemmed an 2 inches too long. Now, I have to take them back and wait again.

2. Every day, I have to face downtown LA traffic and people either cut in front of me or don't let me in at precisely the moment I want.

3. Husband is sick and he's breathing too loud and in my direction. He's going to make me sick.

4. My boss keeps giving me stuff to do every time our eyes meet. I'm afraid to see him.

5. I hate my hair.

6. People call me and want to talk.

7. No one calls me when I want them to.

I could continue, but it's appalling. I am turning into an unreasonable bitch.

Bye Bye, Trees

2007-06-21T09:06:00.000-07:00

It took me about 10 tries to get this batch of envelopes printed for work. Mail merged envelopes that don't fit into the suggested printed margins suck. And for some reason, I kept putting a batch of envelopes in the printer the wrong way, thus printing it wrong, and having to start all over. And then there was the word that wouldn't print. Aside from the obvious pathetic-ness of my task, I just could NOT get it together. In fact, I've been unable to get it together at work this whole week. My boss had to tell me to pay more attention to details -- twice.

My inability to print envelopes made me quite upset. All kinds of thoughts ran through my head, ranging from self-loathing, "If I can't print envelopes, I sure as hell can't pass the bar," to "Who freakin' cares if the address is upside down. It'll still get there." But mostly, I've just been mildly depressed as I sat feeding envelopes into the printer.

A low-grade apathy has settled over me at this point. I need fear, adrenaline, and motivation in equal parts flowing through me the next month -- not an utter lack of caring. Yesterday, I watched Girls Next Door on DVD and thought that maybe I should've just died my hair blonde, gotten some plastic surgery, and dabbled in some acting/modeling/body painting career until Hef found me. That $150K into law school could have been directed into something much more lucrative, and a lot less depressing.

Hello, Alli!

2007-06-20T11:19:00.000-07:00

Come on, now....

Ya'll know you're curious. It's the magical pill that burns fat!! It's all over the news, the bookstores, and even my husband has heard of it. My brother has actually bought stock in it. It's Alli, the only FDA approved weight loss pill!!

It sounded intriguing, and I happened to glance through the book while on a study break at Border's. We all want to lose 5 lbs*, right? And let me tell you, it's a lot harder to lose 5 lbs than it is to lose 50. No, seriously! If you're significantly overweight, the pounds will fall off if you try. But when you get down to those last 10 lbs, you completely plateau. You know on that Biggest Loser show, they lose like 20 lbs in one week! Yes, I know it's water weight and they're working their asses off, but my point is that it's difficult to get those last few pounds off.

Should I try it? It's like $60 at Rite Aid. And considering all the pills I'm planning on taking, in addition to the pill and my multi vitamin, on the recommendation of my fellow bloggers, I'm thinking no. You have to severely limit your fat intake, and really, the food at Border's doesn't allow for that. And should you fail, you get some really bad side effects:

- Oily gas. Oily gas! That means...wet farts. Oh, EW.

- Loose, uncontrollable stools. I mean, really, a big problem in the bar exam. That's just nasty.

- Other miscellaneous stomach problems. No thanks.

But other than that, it sounds promising, doesn't it? I'm curious to know how it's going to work out for people now that it's become this huge hit. Will we be seeing a lot of nastiness in public as the side effects kick in? Will I be looking warily at the person next to me eating a bacon cheeseburger, hoping he isn't on Alli?

* or 6, 7...15 lbs

Weird Moods

2007-06-19T08:49:00.001-07:00

I've been waking up with dull headaches in the mornings. I remember this. During the last bar prep period, I downed a whole bottle of Excedrin Tension Headache. it was practically my breakfast. I normally do not take medication, just the occasional Advil. I also don't smoke, do drugs, or drink coffee.

Things change.

I now like drugs (legal) and have had two cups of coffee this past week. I have yet to smoke, and I hope I don't pick up that habit. Ever notice how habits change during this stressful time? The coffee started because I literally put my head down and fell asleep, drooling, in public at Borders. I woke up with a start, tried to massage out the creases on my face and ordered some coffee. I find it goes well with chocolate chip cookies. I also never really indulged in sweets either, but now...well...

I'm still an avid fan of green tea, but it doesn't give me that instant jolt that, let's face it, I need at this point.

Oh, and the sleeping? Punctuated by weird, disturbing dreams. Which leaves me in an overall disturbed mood these days...

California Rules of Evidence

2007-06-18T18:28:00.000-07:00

A plea for help! I've just realized that my stupid Barbri long outline doesn't cover the CA distinctions in Evidence. ARG!! Does anyone have an outline or Barbri Conviser excerpt of the new rules that they'd be willing to share? I'd be happy to share any of my outlines in return...

I'm so annoyed! And I absolutely positively refuse to shell out another $500 for Conviser. I've already paid an obscene $200 for the long outline. Which means I would have paid $700 for two books! Husband says better to pay that than to fail the bar. Which is true, I suppose, but it's really a last, last resort!!

In other news, I've managed to score an appalling 45% in Con Law MBEs. Must pay attention to questions. Hopefully, you all are faring better. Maybe it's the heat. I can't seem to concentrate!

Progress?

2007-06-17T20:24:00.000-07:00

I've managed to get about 30 MBE questions and the rest of my Civ Pro outline completed today. I kinda rushed though the end of it though, with res judicata and collateral estoppel. It was PAAAINFUL to get though Barbri's long outline on Civ Pro to get all the new CA distinctions. I hope the rest of the new subjects aren't as bad. The amount of detail is ridiculous. I mean, do we really need to know that federal rules allow x number of days for an answer and CA allows y? My rationale is that we need fine line distinctions for MBE subjects whereas essay only subjects, you basically need enough information to be able to bull%*&t.

Now I've gone to Trader Joe's and picked up a bottle of red, and am broiling a steak. I'm going to watch a movie, drink, and eat. And try to complete 17 more MBE questions.

Lululemon Rocks!

2007-06-16T22:45:00.002-07:00

The Reverse Groove pants from Lululemon. I have them with the pink stripes AND they're reversible to be all black. Two pants in one! If you don't have them, or your wife/girlfriend/female BFF doesn't have them, you must go get them! Not only is it supremely comfortable, but they make your ass look GREAT. I'm serious. I've had people stop me in the street and admire my pants (or maybe it was my ass?).

In the world of yoga gear, Lululemon is my personal fave. It doesn't matter if you don't do yoga! They're the perfect bar exam wear. I just got two pairs of their Rehearsal pants and they are the most flattering, comfortable pants. Unlike the Reverse Groove, the Rehearsal pant features a completely straight leg and folds over on top to slouch sexily on the hips. They're not as tight either. I shall live in these pants as I study for the bar. You will recognize me at the exam as The Girl With the Awesome Pants that Make Her Ass Look Great.

For those of you on the quest to Total Hotness, these pants will aid you. It's casual, effortless sexy -- the best kind! After all, anyone can hooch it up in a mini skirt and a plunging halter with FMBs.

And this is related to the bar because (1) I listened to the PMBR cds on the way to the store, and (2) I will be comfortable and not distracted by uncomfortable clothing during my studying.

Check it out, and tell me these aren't the greatest pants!

Future Judge

2007-06-16T15:30:00.000-07:00

I figured out how to upload a picture! And fixed the the annoying sidebar problem! Now, if only I can figure out how to pass the bar so I can become a judge, as illustrated by my brand spankin' new shirt from www.cafepress.com. How cute is that?!

There are all kinds of fun shirts on there for law students and bar takers. Like the famous, "I Own Blackacre" shirt and the ever popular, "Law School. Where social lives go to die."

Hilarious.

I guess being a homophobe can get you fired

2007-06-16T15:13:00.000-07:00

Dr. Burke will not be returning to the cast of Grey's Anatomy next season. For many, this is old news! Apparently, he was said to have been very upset when he was informed that his contract was not going to renewed.

They set it up rather nicely when they had Christina return to the apartment after being jilted, only to find all of Burke's personal possessions gone. I wonder how they'll explain his disappearance? Will he embark on a journey cross-country to "find" himself? Or better yet, will he join Addison in Santa Monica?! That would be funny. And what about McDreamy? Will they no longer be reluctant, manly BFFS fishing together and exchanging wry, witty remarks about their respective relationships with their interns?

Although I believe his comments were inappropriate and downright mean, I do commend his efforts to redeem himself. Anger management classes, public service announcements, and numerous apologies seem sufficient. I mean, really.

At least he didn't call anyone a "knappy headed ho."

Civ Pro.

2007-06-14T22:54:00.001-07:00

I'm finding it quite difficult to get the new CA info into my civ pro outline. I have the outline from the calbar website detailing what we need, but it's very extensive and detailed. There's no way this much detail was EVER tested on the bar exam! And then it gives us this mysterious statement about "emphasis on the areas where there are differences between the Federal Rule and the California Rules, especially those California procedures of pleading and practice that have no specific counterparts in the Federal Rules or that federal trial courts will look to in diversity cases."

Okay. The pleading rules that differ include a lot of nitpicky details like the time you have to answer a complaint or something. And I have to wade through piles of extraneous information in the Barbri long outline and try to extract the info. It's all very time consuming and annoying. Is there another way? What's everyone else doing?

P.S. I've messed up my blog. If you look at my sidebar, the links and stuff are all the way at the bottom. I have no idea what I did. Any computer/blog savvy people have any advice?

God, this is the "HELP ME" post.

What's Hot in Crim Law!

2007-06-14T12:03:00.001-07:00

According to Barbri and other blogs, these are the hot topics tested in Crim law on the exam:

1. The mental states for crime in general, and the specific intent crimes with their particular defenses
2. Transferred intent
3. Accomplice liability
4. Inchoate crimes, especially conspiracy
5. Intoxication defense
6. Infancy defense
7. Self-Defense
8. All time favorite – Mistake of fact
8. Homicide crimes in general
9. In particular, the five defenses to felony murder
10. Distinguish between larceny, embezzlement, and false pretenses
11. Robbery, burglary, and arson

Having taken the exam before (oh, ha ha) and through my current MBE studying, I find this list to be very accurate. Hope it helps!

Should I buy a humidifier?

2007-06-14T08:49:00.000-07:00

So I'm sitting at work, and I realize my nose is dry. It's been dry for a couple of days. I wake up feeling mildly uncomfortable. I feel like I don't have enough air in my room at night, but I don't have any windows to open, so I can't do that. Before you think, "How the heck does she not have a window in her room?!," I am not in prison with Paris. I have french doors that open onto a balcony, and I don't like to open those at nights because there are no screens and I am terrified of bugs and other creepy crawlies infesting my place.

I also have an air purifier I use to circulate the air a bit, but this may actually be more drying. It's just like a giant fan. So I was searching on Amazon and came across this adorable humidifer: http://www.amazon.com/o/ASIN/B000MR4IX6/ref=s9_asin_title_1-serq_g1/103-7609005-7407058?pf_rd_m=ATVPDKIKX0DER&pf_rd_s=center-2&pf_rd_r=0FDHCZYFSPBTXYK01198&pf_rd_t=101&pf_rd_p=278240301&pf_rd_i=507846

There is also this humidifier, which is more chic and probably more grown up:
http://www.amazon.com/Medisana-Hah1500EBP-Ultrasonic-Personal-Humidifier/dp/B000AF78KU/ref=pd_bbs_sr_4/103-7609005-7407058?ie=UTF8&s=hpc&qid=1181836492&sr=8-4

But I was just thinking how I'm going to spend less money, so should I really buy a humidifier? Do I need one? WILL IT HELP ME PASS THE BAR?!

My new schedule

2007-06-13T19:33:00.001-07:00

I realized that my work schedule now is eerily like Barbri's morning schedule of lecture. Since I've already gone to those lectures and the info isn't BRAND new to me, I figure it's the same as last summer and working won't hurt my chances...right? So, with that in mind, here's my new schedule:

7:15-7:30a: Wake up, get ready, head off to work. I seriously get ready in 15 minutes. How I do this is explained below.

7:30-8:00: Drive to work while putting on some makeup. Listen to the morning show on the radio because I'm too bleary eyed and tired to listen to PMBR (hey, I just woke up 15 minutes ago!).

8:00-1:00: Work. Doze off. Look at blogs. Try to squeez in 17 MBEs. This is a hit or miss.

1:00-3:00: Drive home, listen to PMBR. Run any necessary errands and fix myself something nutritious yet tasty to eat. Pack a little snack, change into comfy yoga gear, and head off to Borders.

3:00-6:00: Study.

6:00-7:00: Come home, fix or buy dinner, and try to squeeze in a work out. I consider 30 minutes of working out a triumph.

7:00-9 or 9:30: Study.

9:30-10:30: Get ready for bed, some light flashcards and maybe something light to read just before bed so I don't have nightmares!

Ahh. If only it were this easy. Today, I've managed to do a set of 17 MBEs in Crim and scored about an 85%, which sounds excellent but is really inflated due to the fact that it repeated several questions I had already answered! I believe this is my fault, because I take the tests online and on my downloaded program at home. I also click "review questions later" from time to time which probably means they spit them back out at me.

Now, I really need to get going on incorporating the CA new subjects into my old outlines, as well as review one more set of bar exam past essays. But what I really want to do is watch television. Unfortunately, there's nothing on. Please tell me what's worth watching on tv these days! I've just ordered Girls Next Door Season 2 on my Blockbuster online account! 30 perfect minutes of mind numbing and pleasant study breaks.

Yesterday was a bust.

2007-06-13T08:40:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was pretty much shot because I had to go to a graduation that was in the middle of nowhere. I tried to get some flashcard action going, and listened to PMBR both ways, but...it was a paltry study day.

The problem with being a repeater is that these concepts are not foreign to you anymore. You know the key terminology, and you just need to fine tune your understanding. So it's easy to kind of tune out when you're listening to PMBR or reading because it all looks "familiar."

I'm still trying to get in 17 questions at work. Then I do 2 more sets of 17 during the day. This time, I'm really trying to focus on MBEs. Like others, I've found Strategies and Tactics for the MBE to be very helpful. And so far, I really like Micromash. I like how it tells you what areas you're bad in, gives you the option to review the question later, and gives you your correct answers by subject and as a whole. I find it more difficult to go through the questions in the books because you have to flip back and forth and write. How lazy is that? But this way, I have the MM software on one half of the screen, and my word document for rules on the other. As I go through, I just jot down rules. Saves time.

It's just bar study in an increasingly impatient society.

Every day at work, I just wait for the time to go by. It's very tiring to get up so early, yet I know if I weren't working, I would probably get less studying done. I do feel that at this point, for repeaters, barring any crazy essay format issues or other deep rooted problems, we can put in massive effort and really kick this thing to the curb. I think for many of us, we're within inches of the finish line and it could have gone either way. It's funny, 'cause this time last year, I was a itchy nervous wreck.

Cuttin' Back

2007-06-12T08:50:00.000-07:00

I've sold my Vera Wang wedding dress to fund my bar exam passage quest. How sad is that? Husband didn't want me to, but that's because he doesn't know how much the dress originally cost. When I bought it, I knew I would have to sell it to justify the cost, so it wasn't that terrible...I thought of it as an investment! I think of anything with a substantial resale value as an investment. Husband thinks my logic is twisted, because he says an investment is something you sell for more than you pay for it. Whatever. How often does that happen?

So anyway, we're all having to resort to fancy bookkeeping to take this test aren't we? I kind of think it's funny. Piles and piles of student loan debt, an expensive apartment, and selling of Vera Wang gowns...it's a chick lit book in the making.

SIGH.

Other ways to save money:
1. I don't drink coffee. Yes, you read that right. No daily addiction to Starbucks to gouge a hole in my bank account.

2. I use my Discover card rewards points to get a Border's gift card and use it to buy my tea and other treats as I study. For $20 rewards, you get a $25 Borders card! It's an investment.

3. There's no where to eat near work. So I have to pack my lunch. Although I have to buy food from the grocery store to do so, it's definitely cheaper than buying lunch every day, which my lazy ass would totally do if I could.

4. I eat at my grandma's and other relatives' houses. In the evenings, I meander over to people's houses for food. It's yummy. I also enjoy graduations this time of year. I usually get a great dinner out of it. Of course, I have to buy a gift and it usually cancels itself out, so that may not count.

5. Not going out has it's definite perks. Alcohol at bars are expensive!

6. Not buying new clothes because I'm not going out. All the stuff from before doesn't count. Starting today.

7. Selling books/sunglasses/shoes/bags/husband's things on ebay. Not so much these days, but whenever possible.

8. Downgrading the tv options...no more TiVo for now...BOOO...but with the summer hiatus, there's not much for me to watch, so that's good!

Overall, there are many ways to Cut Back since we're currently unable to Make More Money. And if I could PLEASE get my state tax refund (yet another grievance against the state of CA), that would be wonderfully helpful.

Just a quickie.

2007-06-11T12:54:00.001-07:00

Leaving work now to go to the grocery store and stock up on my food for the week. Then I'll go to Borders or the library...I usually go to Borders but am thinking the library may be better. It's so hard for me to concentrate. I seriously think I have ADD. I beg my husband for meds but he won't get them for me.

Thank you, Paris!

2007-06-09T13:44:00.000-07:00

For taking up many work hours yesterday morning as I refreshed TMZ over and over again and watched you being led out of your house in freakin' HANDCUFFS and then pulled screaming "It's not right! Mom, Mom!" from the courthouse as your ass was hauled back off to jail.

I hesitate to draw even more attention to this ridiculous trainwreck of a case, but it was good for an incredulous WTF?! yesterday, and I figure that when I look back on this blog, I'll be interested in the riveting current events of the time I was preparing to take the bar for the VERY LAST TIME. =) I'm just going to say these things about this case, and I'm not mentioning it again:

1. I think it's stupid she went to jail. Yes, she broke the law, but most people get house arrest or community service. God knows she could have done more good cleaning the side of the 110 fwy of its graffiti than wasting our money on private cells and 5 personal security guards in our overcrowded prisons.

2. That said, since she did go to jail, just SERVE THE TIME. It's like 3 weeks. I'd gladly trade 3 weeks of jail for 2 months of bar review hell as a repeater. She's by herself, it sucks and I would be totally scared too, so I can only imagine how difficult it must be for someone like her, but come on, what can she do? It would have seriously made her look so much better if she quietly did the time. People already think she shouldn't have gotten such a harsh sentence, so critics and fans alike would at least respect that.

3. She has a mental condition that allowed her earlier release? Are you freakin' kidding me? Um, yeah. I think all the prisoners have overwhelming despair and depression. You're in prison. It sucks. That's ridiculous. It was such a patently obvious case of preferential treatment that it rightfully infuriated everyone and made them hate Paris more. I felt sorry for her the first time she went in, but now, I'm like, just suck it up!

Obviously, my sympathy is at an all time low for people who seem to have it better than me right now. This includes Ms. Jailbird Hilton. How sad is it that I'd rather be in jail than go through this studying? But seriously, don't you think you would do it? Three weeks of jail for a guaranteed pass on the bar exam? I would. I'd use the time in my cell to work on my pilates and work out, emerging as a fit, toned, and tough licensed attorney!

But back in reality, I'm outside on the patio trying to work on MBE questions. On an unrelated note, do you think my employer can track the websites I go to if I delete the history? Just a little paranoid and want to be able to say what I want without having to censor. =)

The Results Are In.

2007-06-07T15:35:00.000-07:00

I suck on the MBEs. I'm actually too ashamed to put it down here, for fear that it'll be real. Suffice it to say that I need to hit the Micromash software, hard. CalBar Blondie posted a comment about how the MBEs are very important, and I have to agree! I mean, I always thought so and all, but I get caught up in the whole, "It's only 35% of the grade" mentality. I got involved in this whole intensive essay tutoring thing last time and completely neglected the MBEs. As a result, my scores kinda plummeted. I think I did maybe a few hundred MBEs. The scale was much higher though, so my scaled scored seemed a bit bitter in comparison to my raw score.

On the bright side, my essay scores improved. I even got a 75 on the Wills question! And considering I wrote NOTHING about easements on Property, I was lucky to pull a 60. My evidence question was an all time low, coming in at 52.5, my lowest essay score ever. And I actually studied Evidence because I knew it was going to be on the exam. The never before seen format of the question completely unnerved me.

The sad thing is, if you combine my essay score this time, and the MBE score last time, I would pass! Yes, it took me a while to figure out the calculations, but I did it to cheer myself up. Remember in SAT II how there was the score choice option and you could pick your highest score? I would like to implement that option for the CA Bar!

Now, more than ever, I am determined to rock this thing. The past bar exam was notoriously difficult. I did not feel prepared and I did not feel good walking out (but one never really does, hmm?) . And I still scored in the 1400s. Which means I can do it this time around.

It's like being $1 short at the best sale of your life.

Back to Borders

2007-06-06T08:26:00.001-07:00

It was like greeting an old friend. I love bookstores. I love books. But I've found it difficult to go into a Borders in the time between last February and now. I walk in, look at the people huddled over their laptops and books in the cafe, and quickly avert my eyes. I think, " I do NOT want to be one of those people again!," but I feel a strange solidarity with them anyway...

Not to be mean, (don't people always say that JUST as they're about to be mean?) but I've found out that some pretty unremarkable people have passed the bar. People I've known for years, people I've conversed with, people I've gone to school with. I'm not saying I'm better than them, but I know that they're not especially smart or quick or hard workers. Are they just especially...lucky?

Perhaps.

Or maybe they're harder workers. This is definitely my greatest downfall. I've been able to skate by on minimal preparation and bullshit my way through school pretty much all my life. My lazy brain is now thoroughly trained in the art of the "zone out" and picks through data to extricate only the most pertinent information. It seriously refuses to learn more. This leaves me thinking I know the law, but then when I see it applied in a real life scenario (i.e. MBEs and the essays), I may get it confused because I haven't thought it through to really understand. Because you see, this is not just rote memorization. We have to know how it's applied in real life! Obviously, right?

So far, I'm liking the MM software. I have a tendency to glance through the problems and pick random answers without really thinking about it (again, the lazy brain syndrome combined with a truly horrible lack of patience = failing the bar exam) but I'm scoring around 60%. I haven't read over my outlines or anything, so I figure with that and actually paying attention to the qs will bring me up to around 70%. Which is ok...

It's like I'm not studying for the bar.

2007-06-04T17:01:00.000-07:00

It's hard not to lose perspectice during this process. Today, I was watching America's Next Top Model at work, and when Jaslene won, she was so ecstatic and all, "This is the best moment of my life!" and I thought, that must be what it would feel like to pass the bar. As if it isn't infinitely cooler and funner (and harder) to become a top supermodel.

I've filled two 3" binders with past CA bar exams and answers. I have yet to receive my scores!! I moved during the time I took it and results, and though I submitted a change of address, the CA bar, of course, sent it to my old address. And I can't ask for another copy until tomorrow. Or else wait like 3 weeks for the ever efficient mail forwarding system to work. So, I'm also trying to do the whole work and study thing, starting this week. I have to be at work by 8:00 in order to leave by 1:00. Today, I got there at 8:30 and left at 3:00. This is why I cannot work and study. I need the time allocation to be respected. I need to leave by 1:00, damnit! We'll see how this goes this week. I have this vision of myself going to sleep by 11:00, arising leisurely out of bed at 7:00, packing a tasty yet healty lunch, and being at my desk by 8:00, where I will spend an efficient morning working and getting some Micromash qs in, and leaving promptly at 1:00. Where I will then go home, change, rest an hour and eat a energy snack, and go to the library by 3:00. I will study until 7:00 and come home to eat dinner and rest and/or work out. I will study from 9:00 to 10:30 and then go to sleep.

Sounds like a good plan, right??

The Plan

2007-05-31T10:36:00.000-07:00

Micromash: I've heard great things about it, and though I loathe the thought of shelling out $800+ for the MBE review, I loathe the thought of failing even more.

BarBri long CA outline for the new subjects. *I know where you can get a photocopy of the new subjects for $100 if anyone's interested! =)

Compilation of the past essays and answers into a ginormous binder. Plan to go through and list the topics tested. I will then break down these topics into concise rule statements for each and that will be my "cheat sheet." I will, of course, also actually do these essays!

Outlines/Flashcards. Fortunately (unfortunately?) I already have these. I need to make new ones for the new subjects using the information listed above.

PMBR lectures on iPod. I hate these. I always think I'll listen to them in the car, but then I find myself switching to Pussycat Dolls instead.

I think I have it in me to do it one last time. I had prepped myself for this, knowing that Feb was not a good month for me (or Jan for that matter) so it was no where near the devastation of last time. But sometimes, I find myself incredulous that one year later, I'm still taking this exam. It's a tough pill to swallow. However, I look at it like an extra year of school. It's like med school, which is also 4 years! And at least I get to work and make some money during it, right? So it's better than 3rd year...kinda.

I plan on working about 20 hours a week, because: (1) I need the money (2) I think it'll be good to get out (3) I tend to whittle away hours doing absolutely nothing productive anyway, and maybe I'll study more if I know that this is the only time I have to do it! I'll take the last couple weeks completely off though.

I've registered with CA Bar, Micromash, and looking into hotel reservations. Any recommendations in San Diego within the SD Concourse center?

Eh.

2007-05-25T23:31:00.001-07:00

Surprisingly, I don't feel that bad. I had anticipated it back in February. What with the computer malfunction, marriage problems, and various other problems going on at that time, it would've been a miracle. Plus, everyone I know seems to have failed. It was more difficult than July, so maybe we were all taken by surprise a bit.

I'm in a much better place now, and have psyched myself up for Round 3 for months now (although holding on to the small hope of passing). In July, I failed by 10. Maybe this time I failed by 5. Inch by painful inch, I'm getting there.

Congratulations to all those who passed!! And for those who didn't, misery loves company...

The end of a journey

2007-05-25T09:50:00.000-07:00

Finally. It's all going down in 8 hours. After months (really, years) of work, it comes down to this. I was kinda okay this week, and even managed to forget about today for periods of time. It's not the same as last time. I'm so busy this weekend with in laws in town, weddings to go to, and a rehearsal dinner pretty much minutes after results are released that I think I'll just keep going. No drowning myself in alcohol or making phone calls like last time! I don't even think many of my family or friends know that today is the day! Except husband, who pretends it's a day like any other day and knows better than to ask any questions before I'm ready to tell him. =)

Well, where ever you are and what ever you're doing tonight at 6:00pm, know that if the result is not as expected, roughly 50% of all of us are feeling the exact same thing at the exact same time. And if the result is good...well, then you hardly need any advice from me on the ecstacy you will be feeling!

In a message repeated across CA bar exam blogs everywhere today, good luck everyone! And remember: It may take a few times, but odds are heavily in our favor that we will eventually pass. In this case, it's all about the destination, not the journey!

Nerves of Steel

2007-05-22T22:09:00.000-07:00

It's been forever since I've written! But fear not -- I have diligently been reading everyone else's blogs! Since my last post, I've moved and started a new job, and have had no private access to internet. Although I know it's unlikely, I'm afraid that somehow, they'll track me down at work so I'm afraid to log on!

But now, I have internet at my own place. It's great. I've been working for about a month now doing general counsel work for small to mid sized companies. No billable hours, no firm, and a variety of different work ranging from real estate, trusts, business, and doing all my own administrative work! I'm even answering phones. It's a medley of stuff, but the pay is good and my hours are super chill...loving that! Will be especially useful should I have something major taking up my time in the next couple of months. God forbid.

I'm actually okay. I'm prepared for the worst case scenario, and these past months have taught me that there are more important things in life and at the end of my life, this is just one test. A test that I can take until I pass it. A test that is absolutely passable. I came so close last time that I am certain that I'm perfectly capable of passing this thing; if not this time, then the next. Yes, it's embarassing and expensive and humbling, but I can keep my job and study at the same time. I have a plan, and I'm in control of my life should this test decide to re-emerge in my life.

In the meantime, I'm enjoying my slew of television shows:

- Grey's Anatomy. Don't even get me started on the absymal season finale.
- Ugly Betty. Always fun, always uplifting!
- Desperate Housewives. Still waiting to see the finale!
- Dancing With the Stars. Please, Apolo, win!
- America Idol. Team Jordin...
- Next PCD. UGH. Asia?! That girl is soooo ghetto. I was all for Chelsea or Melissa... SUCH a disappointment. It also felt like a slutty high school talent show kinda...but I still watched it.

Just in case you think I watch this much tv, I actually only watch the top three and skim the rest. The rest of my time has been spent furniture shopping. I've developed a taste for DWR, Noguchi tables, and Pablo lighting. Not good for the credit cards!

Things I'm looking forward to:
- Harry Potter Book 7 on July 21. I've pre-ordered from Amazon and can't wait!
- Pirates 3. Will probably end up watching some copy from China.
- Weddings galore. Time to shop for dresses!
- Wearing my Chanel sunglasses that I got for 50% off that I've lusted after forever.
- Getting a tan at my new pool.
- Dancing and working out so that I can be the next PCD!

Life is good.

Okay, nevermind!

2007-03-20T08:24:00.000-07:00

I had a completely unprofessional moment yesterday. So, you know how I've been looking for non-legal jobs? I had myself fully convinced that I wanted to take a break from law and explore other options while I could. While I do feel that law may not be my ultimate career goal, that perspective has somewhat changed.

I managed to get an offer at a Fortune 100 fashion company, starting at an entry level corporate position. Mind you, it was very unglamorous and entailed doing some retail, but it was a start. I accepted it last week. I was to start on Monday, but then over the weekend, I started to have second thoughts. The salary was pitiful (a little more than 1/3 of what I made at my old firm!!), but I was prepared to take a massive cut in pay due to my lack of experience in any other field. I just started to feel that I couldn't jump to another field yet. My battle with law is not yet complete!! So, in an unprecedented move, I called the company and made up some convoluted reason why I couldn't accept the position. It was mortifying, but they seemed to understand and even said to contact them should my circumstances change.

Did I make the right decision? I don't know. There are those who say that our lives are a tapestry reflecting the decisions we make. We know that we make certain decisions, which leads us down certain roads, which then leads us to other choices that we would not have had we not traveled down that road. I wonder, what doors would have opened up for me if I had gone down that road? It seems that I wonder this a lot lately, with my career, love, and life in general.

Friends think I should have taken the job. It's not something I feel comfortable admitting to people, but I think a major part of the reason is pride. A small part of me feels like I would be taking the easy way out, and maybe my desire to work in another field comes from my lack of success (i.e. not passing the bar) in this field. I explore this in my mind, and think that no, I truly like fashion and would truly like to try other fields, but I want to be sure that this is the reason. I don't want to question myself, nor do I want others to question me. Once I pass the bar, I can do whatever I want to, and I won't have to wonder if it's because I couldn't cut it in law.

But in the meantime, this leaves me without a job. I do not want to go back to my old firm! And so, for the first time ever, I'm taking a break. I'm looking for some temp or part time jobs in law to float me and husband and using the rest of the time to relax. There's also the possibility of doing some work for my old firm on a contractual basis, from home, which would be nice. If anyone has any job suggestions in the LA area, please let me know! :)

Tomorrow, I will go down to San Diego for a mini-break. I plan on hanging out in the gaslamp district and going out with friends. In my contemplative state these past few weeks, I haven't really had a lot to drink (Oddly, I don't like to drink when I'm not in a good mood) but I think I'm ready to get my drink on now!

Hmmm...What to do?

2007-03-06T23:14:00.000-08:00

My body still can't really calm down, though I am sleeping better now! I've gotten all caught up in organizing my life. I think it's some kind of subconscious desire to feel in control of my life or something. I have extensive lists full of plans, and it makes me happy to schedule things. Today, I spent 3 hours cleaning. Then I went to the cleaners and dropped off about a month of dry cleaning for my husband and me. I went to the gym. I went to the grocery store and bought food (we had none). I watched Real Housewives and Desperate Housewives. And I sent out resumes.

I worked at a firm before this, but I am seriously tired of the law. I'm tired of always working my ass off in this field. I feel like I'm tired after years of double majors and summer school and tests and simultaneous jobs. So, I've decided to take this time to make a drastic change.

I am looking for non-legal jobs.

Yes, this is tough. It makes me think that I would "waste" all these years of work if I don't pursue law. It makes me scared that it'll sabotage my potential to get a job as a lawyer later. I have also realized how completely unqualified I am for anything OTHER than law, now that I've devoted so many years to it. Unfortunately, all of these years have also instilled in me a certain pay expectation that is difficult to meet when you are unqualified for a job. It's a dilemma, to be sure. I've sent out 4 resumes, and so we'll see what happens.

Tomorrow, I'm considering going to the spa. And then this weekend, I have to go back to Sacramento (the site of the horrible exam!) for a wedding! Can you believe it? I'm still slowly getting back into the swing of things, trying to figure things out.

It's Over.

2007-03-02T09:05:00.000-08:00

Hey, so did I call PT B or what? It was a memo to my boss! Except...it said to be objective, but then it said to discuss how we got to our conclusions or something like that, and I took the whole thing to mean that we were to discuss the pros and cons of our case, strengths and weaknesses, likely outcomes, etc. like in the real world. So I did. I hope this is correct. I'm feeling a little weak on the last issue, regarding whether forfeiture violates Section 1600 because I kinda raced through that and said that it did, but on second thought, there's something in the cases that said it doesn't have to be because he could have exercised his options before...or something.

I can think of all kinds of things I messed up on. I can't think of a major one, but I muddled things a bit here and there throughout. This test was ludicrous compared to the last one. I so regret not passing the last time, because if those types of questions had been there this time, I would have kicked ass. On JDjive (a crap site, I know, but sometimes they have some good discussions), people were doing the post mortem on the bar and everyone was kinda all over the place but everyone agreed that this test was very difficult. So I guess that bodes well for the curve. Someone told me that they tested 11 out of the 14 subjects!!!! That is completely insane.

My one big question is whether Question 1 (property) discussed easements, covenants, and/or licenses. People have varying opinions. Overall, I must say that I felt like I didn't get everything perfect, or even close, but that it's going to all come down to the grading and the curve. I simply don't know what you need to have to get a 65-75. I mean, what if you mess up the law? Miss some minor issues? Can you get a 75? I just don't know how they determine it all. If it's "Well, she got the main ISSUES, and she messed up the law a bit, and missed a couple minor issues, okay, 65!" then I'd be okay I think. =)

As for the Sacramento Convention Center...well, I think we all have complaints about our bar sites. Not exactly associated with fond memories. It was my first time in Sac, and the two blocks I saw over the past 4 days makes me forever associate the entire city with trauma. Thankfully, my hotel was like 5 minutes from the test center -- we're talking from my room to my seat in the center! That was fabulous, given the weather and overall stress. The proctors were surprisingly spry -- they weren't a million years old this time, but a youthful 60-70! And of course, there's the nazi proctor who always insisted that my laptop paper lay horizontally, on the bottom and in a perfect 90 degree angle in my ziplock baggie on top of my cover sheets. The only truly horrible thing was the air conditioning that shot out of these massive ducts lined up on the ceiling on the center. It would just blow all this air, so hard that my hair and papers would rustle, and my fingers would freeze, I couldn't breathe, and I was just completely annoyed and cold. Imagine someone blowing a fan on you all day long while you're trying to concentrate. It sucked.

Last night, I rushed to the airport to get home, and looked forward to watching Grey's and Betty with husband. But of course, they were reruns. I thought about drinking, but strangely, the urge was not there. I'm slightly depressed and still wired I think. I went to sleep exhausted around 1:00 and woke up at 6:00. Couldn't fall asleep again.

It usually takes me a couple weeks to get back into the groove. I must now decide what kind of job to take and earn some money. I can't say that I feel good, but I don't feel terrible. I feel kind of...removed from it all. It is nice to not have to study though, and actually do other things without feeling bad. I'm thinking I'll go to the mall and maybe get a mani/pedi. And I have a birthday party tomorrow too.

Life goes on!

No method to the madness

2007-03-01T13:23:00.000-08:00

So I'm in between the AM and PM session of DAY THREE, otherwise known as FREEDOM!!! I remember last time, I was so excited to be done during PT B that I kept looking at the clock, thinking, "it's all over in an hour!"

I wrote a quick response to a comment on the MBEs in yesterday's comments as I couldn't log in. Today, I have some free wireless. I'm beyond fazed now with the freakin' bar examiners. I know everyone bitches and groans about the questions each time, but really...EVERY SINGLE QUESTIONS with the exception of Murder was a CROSSOVER. And although Evidence made an appearance as expected, it was unlike anything I've ever seen before. I was prepared for one, maybe two WTF??! questions, but seriously, every single essay was kinda whacked.

Question 4: Wills and CP. Wills again? It's not even an MBE topic! You don't get to test it again so soon! And thanks for throwing in the CP to make our brain go in two different directions at once.

Question 5: Con Law. No freaking way, freedom of speech AGAIN?!! Not only the same topic, but the same issue? I find this conclusive proof that the examiners are trying to f&^k with our minds.

Question 6: Sigh. I'll repeat -- never saw anything like that. Was there a lot of superfluous crim pro info in the beginning?

Now, on to PT B. They may as well give us another P&A. It's all completely random. Maybe a nice memo to my boss. That would be nice.

Good luck, all. The end is in sight.

My, oh my

2007-02-27T17:28:00.000-08:00

WTF?? I took one look at question number one and almost threw up. Property. Leaseholds, assignments, covenants, landlord/tenant duties....and a nice little nuisance tort thrown in for kicks. I forgot some stuff in convenants -- namely, notice. And then a completely unexpected Corps questions having nothing to do with what I thought it'd be -- 10b5 securities stuff. But finally, a gift -- murder. I love murder.

As for PT A, I've got to say that I'm generally clueless in PTs. I didn't write about the crimes and frauds exception because I read (over and over again) in the instruction memo to not deal with the obvious issues of professional responsibility. Even though they threw in an entire case devoted to the crimes and fraud exception. I put a little note at the end that I excluded it due to that. I know I'm not supposed to beat myself up over it, and I won't, but I just want to know if anyone else interpreted it this way? To tell the truth, there's no way I could have gotten to it. Without a single break, I barely had enough time to get through it as it was...

I think February is harder. It's not as straightforward. Does it make a difference that it's mostly repeaters when it comes to grading, do you think? Tonight, I'm going to try and do some MBEs, work out, and get some early shut eye.

MBE day, ugh. I'm hanging in there...hope everyone else is doing ok too! It's raining here in Sac, but thankfully, my hotel is mere steps away from the exam. That's something to be grateful for, I guess. =)

Unbelievable.

2007-02-26T14:46:00.000-08:00

I missed my flight to Sacramento. Seriously, I'm sitting in the Burbank airport right now in disbelief that I'm putting added stress on myself. The thing is, I had plenty of time this morning and since I checked in online, thought it would be fairly quick to get through security. I hadn't counted on extraordinarily long lines though. And, even though people were kind enough to let me pass, I missed it by less than a minute. The plane was just out of reach, with the doors wide open. The lady just shook her head at me.

The next flight is 3 hours later. Figures. Usually, they have flights every hour, but not this time! So, I'm now worried about my luggage (I had to check a bag because I had all my books in it) and only have MBE book, flashcards, and some personal notes on me. And my laptop. I hate to be parted with my suitcase as it is, but now, I don't even have the security of having it on the same plane as me. It's probably in Sacramento, waiting to get stolen by someone who's gonna get a nasty surprise when they find out its all bar books. And my clear bag with my admissions ticket in it. Please don't let them lose my bag.

So much for the happy little plan outlined below. I've done 10 evidence questions and gotten 5 wrong, read about Britney's latest debacle (actually, I feel really bad for her...she's obviously in a lot of emotional turmoil...I can relate to stress) and eaten an airport pepperoni pizza.

So, will continue to do the MBE questions and flashcards for another 2 hours. Again, this is freakin' unbelievable. Haha..maybe I don't really want to go and take the exam!! =)

No, I do. I want to go and kick some bar exam ass. I really do. So I hope I can get up there soon...

Here we go...

2007-02-25T21:24:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow, I fly to Sacramento and check into my hotel. I don't know whether I'll have easy access to internet there, but if I do, I'll try to post.

My last thoughts as I go into this are a sense of panic because I feel millions of little rules becoming murky, and a sense of determination to pass this exam. I'm afraid to shake my head too hard or focus on anything too much for fear that the law will fall out. But, at this point, it's important to remember that we can only do what we can. Regardless of whether you've studied your ass off and feel fully prepared or feel scared and unsure, there is nothing more we can do. A defeatist and negative attitude will only result in attracting the very thing we feel (failure) and depriving us of much needed confidence and sleep.

I plan on reviewing Evidence for a couple of hours and doing some MBEs. I'll go to bed by 12:00 and wake up around 8:30 and pack. Airport at 12:30 and then settling into the hotel. Study for about 3 hours -- general overview of weak areas -- followed by a good workout at the hotel and room service. Pop a Sonata around 10:00, and then -- it's Tuesday morning.

You can do this. We've already accomplished a tremendous amount. Best of luck, everyone!

Things I'm Grateful For

2007-02-25T11:14:00.000-08:00

1. People who root for me
2. Strong ties with my family and relatives
3. Resources to take time off work to study for the bar
4. A generally sunny disposition
5. Coke in a glass bottle
6. Excedrin Tension headache pills
7. A light and working Sony Vaio laptop
8. Collection of cute and comfortable clothes that include Juicy, Abercrombie & Puma
9. The gym, pilates, kickboxing, and yoga
10. The ability and opportunity to sit for the bar exam -- the last hurdle to being a lawyer

Oh. My. God.

2007-02-25T00:40:00.000-08:00

Today I tried to study Contracts. I went to Peet's for about 4 hours and probably studied about 3. I did about 40 MBEs and reviewed the wrong answers. I read over my outline.

I always get confused when people try to change the terms of the contract. There seem to be many ways -- modification, parol evidence, counteroffer, inquiry... I get confused. I got sad and left. I went to eat sushi at my uncle's restaurant. This was free, so that cheered me up. My little cousins (ages 14 and 10) gave me a good luck card with $20 they pooled together so that I can buy lunch during the bar. It just about broke my heart. I thought, "Oh...everyone really wants me to pass." And yet, my brain refuses to cooperate and learn Contracts.

I hate the damn subject, I really do. Yet, I must learn it tomorrow. It'll cut into substantive Evidence review time though, and this sucks because I hate Evidence too and I'm sure it's going to be on the essays...

Don't you think we can do this if we only had one more week?

I can't sleep

2007-02-23T06:45:00.000-08:00

I've been laying in bed since 4:30 AM, wide awake, so I've decided to just get up. UGH! The insomnia and itchiness has begun. I don't know if anyone else experiences it, but I "stress itch." Well, to be concise, I "bar exam stress itch." During law school, before my wedding, and any other potential major and big events in my life during which I experience stress, I don't itch. It's only when I study for the bar.

So here I am, 6:47 in the morning, waiting for the pharmacy to open, because I'm going to have to break down and get some Sonata and give it a trial run before the exam. I've taken it before (last summer) but haven't had any recently. I know I'm supposed to try to get on the sleep pattern of waking up at 8:00 well rested and ready for a day of testing, but that's just not going to happen. My strategy has changed to getting as much normal sleep as possible beforehand so that I can get through the testing with funky sleep patterns.

At least Meredith didn't die yesterday. Not that I thought she would...but you never know. I didn't think Marisa would be killed off on the OC, but she was! Speaking of which, it was the season finale of the OC last night. I've actually liked this season a lot more than when Marisa was around. Not so much crazy drama and angst. Plus, you got to see Ryan relax, instead of running around trying to sort out Marisa drama. It was a pleasant end to the show, with everything being wrapped up, but it was really quick. A lot of information in one hour. They should have put it in 2 hours. Seth and Summer got married after they let each other go to find themselves or whatever, and Julie Cooper went to college! Yay for Team Julie. Ryan went to Berkeley, thank goodness, and seems to still be with Taylor. All in all, a sweet end to the show.

OMG, I am so itchy. This completely sucks. I guess I should start my Torts day now, since I'm up and will probably need a nap later in the day. Hoping everyone else is faring better!

Con Law

2007-02-22T20:31:00.000-08:00

What are the odds they'll have it on there again? But then, the bar examiners love Con Law essays...so if they do put it on there, what are the odds they'll put Freedom of Expression on it? Right? I'm thinking Fed State stuff, Dormant Commerce clause stuff...

To that end, I've found Whitney Roberts' Cheat Sheets to be extremely valuable. She really breaks it down in the format we should use on the essays. It's a totally different understanding of the topics. You know when you read an outline, you think you understand a concept, but then you go to write about it in an essay, and it becomes a mess. This book breaks it down, probably too much in detail. That's the difference between this book and Adachi's Bar Breakers -- BB books are like a genuine essay. No crazy headlines or anything! Whitney's are all about the headings and unfolding every little element. I'd have to lean towards Whitney's style, only because we've all heard about how little time the graders spend on our essays, and we want to be sure they understand us. They probably don't want to see long paragraphs that they have to muddle through.

That said, I'm losing momentum here. Must continue with the Con Law, but planning to focus on Fed State stuff. SIGH. At least Grey's is on tonight. Let one thing go right at least -- let Meredith live! =)

Got me a clear bag

2007-02-21T21:46:00.000-08:00

After being completely distracted from my topic of the day (Crim Law & Pro) by visions of my zip lock baggie being torn and all my stuff falling out, I made a run to Target to alleviate my fears by buying a clear bag. Alas, all they had were enormous totes with gaudy flower prints on the borders and handles. I wandered into the toiletry section, where I found a small clear bag with black trim. It's not that cute. It was also filled with those cheap looking plastic shampoo bottles and soap holders. Yuck. I hemmed and hawed in the aisle, wasting all kinds of valuable time, and called my friend for advice. Yes, I am completely unable to make decisions these days. We discussed the impracticality of buying a $1000 Chanel clear bag instead, and came to the conclusion that all clear bags seem somewhat tacky. Therefore, buy something as small and discreet as possible. So I bought it.

I am also starting to compile my bar exam outfits. Comfort is key. So far, I have a mix of Juicy, Abercrombie, and Hanes. Still trying to decide whether I want to wear flip flops, Pumas, or Uggs. Depends on whether I want to wear socks and the weather conditions. As for the clock dilemma, I've decided to use my husband's watch, which is large and has numbers on it.

I am also utterly bored by Crim, despite the fact that I can't ever remember all the elements for Larceny, False Pretenses, Forgery, Embezzlements, etc. I think I've got homicide though. Back to studying now...

One less topic to study

2007-02-20T17:23:00.000-08:00

Ha ha ha...my Strategies and MBE book "stategy" suggests not studying Future Interests for the bar exam. Now that's what I'm talking about!

It's hilarious. It begins by tentatively suggesting that if we're crunched for time, to just leave out Future Interests because "if you don't know Future Interests thoroughly, you may as well not know it at all." Now, can anyone really say that they know Future Interests thoroughly? Come, now. No one knows this crap that well.

It later goes on to give some tips on Future Interests in case you didn't get their polite hint to just drop it altogether combined with "if you haven't already decided to give up on Future Interests." Translation: "Forget about Future Interests, you idiot! It's way too hard for you!!"

Their final hint and warning says that assuming you decided to study for Future Interests after all, no matter how well prepared you are, you'll probably have to guess.

It's great. But you know what? I'm going with it. Forget Future Interests. I'm just gonna try and master some typical Rules Against Perpetuities scenarios (not the actual rule itself, God forbid), and that's it.

So there you go, one less topic to study!

Please leave a message after the beep...

2007-02-20T17:17:00.000-08:00

Now, the “good luck on the exam!” calls are coming. People keep speaking to me. They keep trying to contact me. I can no longer distinguish between normal statements and statements that are designed to upset me. You decide:

“I have complete faith that you’re going to pass this time!”

“Hey, you only have a few more days left!”

“Do you want to hang out this Friday?”

“Just calling to say hi. I wanted to catch up (i.e. tell you everything, in minute detail, about everything that’s going on in my life) so call me back!” Followed by a second message: “Hey, you still haven’t called me back. Call me!”

“How’s the studying going?”

Really, any phone call that requires mustering up any kind of social etiquette annoys me. I think, really, any kind of call that mentions the exam at all by those people in our lives who are (1) oblivious to the world of law and this excruciating rite of passage, and (2) people who have already passed. That only leaves people who are studying for the exam as people I can potentially talk to and not want to hit. Those people, and my husband, who has learned not to bring it up at all and to pretend that it’s not happening. He just leaves me alone and responds to my occasional demands and outbursts. I am not fit to be among people right now.

Where the heck to do you get an analog clock??

2007-02-19T18:01:00.000-08:00

I went to Radio Shack on my way home from Pilates:

Me: Hi, do you guys have any small analog clocks?
Sales guy: What?
Me: An analog clock.
SG: You mean, like with the hands?
Me: Um, yeah.
SG: I don't think I've seen one of those in years. Why don't you upgrade to a digital one? Everyone has those now. (Points to some digital clocks)
Me: Yes, I have one of those too. I just need an analog one for an exam I'm taking.
SG: (Incredulous) They only let you use analog clocks? They don't even sell those anymore!!
Me: (Sighing) I know. I just thought I'd try.

I guess I could use a watch, but it has a small face, no numbers, and it's hard to distinguish whether it's 9:22 or 9:25. I don't really want to sit in the exam and stress myself out over that. Among the list of stupid requirements for the bar exam, this has got to be one of the most annoying. That and the clear bag situation. I want to buy an actual clear bag instead of a zip lock so I don't have to worry about my crap falling out, but it has a little bit of writing on it and I'm scared they won't allow it. Again, trying to minimize any possible distractions.

Ugh. As for progress, I'm on Corps and Professional Responsibility today. Got through Corps (although really, what are the chances it's gonna be on there again? And if so, it'll be Rule 10b5 stuff, don't you think?) and about to work on PR. Am also planning on watching Nora Roberts' Carolina Moon on Lifetime tonight at 9:00.

That's right, I'm watching Lifetime.

Happy Chinese New Year!

2007-02-18T19:19:00.000-08:00

Today is Civ Pro and Remedies review day. I despise Remedies, and have yet to read over it yet. Husband and I went to my parents' house to eat and I listened to PMBR Con Law on the ipod on the way there and back. Thus far, have covered the following subjects in Civ Pro today:

- Personal Jurisdiction
- Subject Matter Jurisdiction
- Joinder
- Supplemental Jurisdiction
- Erie Doctrine
- Venue
- Summary Judgment
- Miscellaneous minor topics

I have yet to do any MBE questions but will hopefully complete 10 before Desperate Housewives starts at 9:00. I've locked myself in my study until then. At 9:00, I will be munching on teriyaki chicken, rice, and iced green tea in honor of Chinese new year, and watching the show. At 10:00, I will return to read over Remedies for 2 hours and then I'll go to sleep.

Speaking of which, I've been sleeping appx. 9.5 hours a night, which I believe is excessive. However, I'm actually able to sleep at night without tossing and turning and sleep through the night these past days. I know from previous experience that this is a major gift. Sleep is elusive in these stressful days, and I'm now saving a fortune in not having to buy Sonata! I shall use that money to get a mani/pedi before the bar in Sac. Some tips on better sleep, suggested by my doctor and proven to work (on me, at least):

- Work out, but not after 7:00pm
- No caffeine after 8:00 pm
- Sleep at 12:00
- Take about 15 minutes before sleep to get your mind off the bar by reading a magazine while brushing your teeth or something
- Some relaxing yoga poses before sleep
- Keep your sheets and blankets clean and fresh! Maybe it's just me, but I start feeling itchy and paranoid about bugs or something...yeah, probably just me
- Wear something clean to bed (same theory as the sheets above)

Back to Civ Pro.

LotsnLots of Sleep

2007-02-16T09:49:00.000-08:00

Ahhh....Went to sleep around 12:30 and woke up at 9:30. Granted, I was still very tired and wanted to keep sleeping more (a sure sign of depression) but I made myself read my Strategies and Tactics for the MBE book for about 15 minutes so I can drag myself out of bed. But I had a great night's sleep! YAY! I was fighting off the urge to take a nap all day yesterday though. Hopefully, this will be the beginning of an effective and refreshing sleep schedule the days prior to the bar.

Today, I'm trying to decide if I should go to Borders. I just don't know if I can eat another sausage and cheese biscuit. It's like the only thing there not full of sugar (instead, full of fat!) and quite possibly the reason I don't lose an ounce despite the fact I work out almost every day. I seriously think that the workouts just make me burn enough calories to bring me even with the amount of calories I consume in a day. After all, I do absolutely no physical activity whatsoever besides that. In my regular life-before-the-bar, I actually moved. Walking around at work, cleaning, etc. I'd probably be really fit if I worked out like this in the previous life...yet another thing the bar has taken from me. =(

I'm reading Whitney Roberts' Cheat Sheets and doing MBE questions today. Kind of a general overview of subjects. My memorization period starts tomorrow. May today be productive to everyone!